Taking charge of my well being!

Perhaps @Former-Member it might have been OK to go to work in your PJs because surely no one would hassle or give a hard time to someone in their pjs😝 Glad you are ok but I know things are still rough. Sending hugs and hoping for a kinder day for you😊💜

Good morning @Former-Member @Decadian @BlueBay @Appleblossom @Kurra

Today is the 1st day of the second half of the year.

I wanted to take responsibility for my well being and have been pretty slack. I put it down to the meds side effects, but it is probably just me. I will have to get some routine & discipline back in my life to make this work. Every other week I have ideas on what to change or how to create my day, and I fail miserably. But I think I have just not found what is working for me right now. So I will keep looking. Things will work out eventually. I hope.

Wishing you all a good day xoxo

Hi @Former-Member

Good to see you are in a better head space today. Happy for you. And great idea that you wrote some notes for your psych. I do that a bit especially when am really bad, I find it hard to talk to him so I write it all down.

Sounds like that routine is a big part of your wellbeing. I find too that I need routine, a to do list at work and I stick to it.

I hope you have a nice day tomorrow and a really good week. xxxooo

Hi @Former-Member, so great to hear you sounding more on top of things. I took a list of issues to discuss with psychiatrist today too. Just the act of writing things out helps get them clear in my mind. Don't need to do it every time but definitely helpful when things have been feeling especially messy, as they have for the past week for me too. I too love the idea of you having a 'grown up discussion' with your psychiatrist. That's the best way to move forward with our doctors for sure. Best wishes for your appointment now going really well.

Good morning @Former-Member @Decadian @BlueBay @Appleblossom @Kurra @utopia @Mazarita and everybody I missed 🙂

It's really early in the morning. I have a big day ahead with 2 work appointments & psych & social worker. I think I have it all organised and under control - because every appointment is at a different place and I have to combine car travel & train. Just not sure where I will fit eating in...

I've written everything down for the appointments and have also stocked up on meds - therefore committed myself to taking them. @Former-Member another very disappointing visit to the pharmacy yesterday.

Even if the psych would want to change my meds I would like to take them in the same constellation for another month, but at the same time implement more mindfulness and a little more activity and see how I settle with my new counsellor. I have also found one critical part in my treatment that is not being addressed. And that is how to learn & practice grounding. What do I do when my head spins out of control? The other thing I really want to discuss and finalise is what I am trying out for the month, I try a million things and never see the benefit, it's a bit like changing major at university every day, I think if I can agree with my care team what my focus is, then I can make some progress.

I can proudly say that I have not contacted a helpline in 2 days, something I wanted to work on - and it was easy, but only because it was the weekend 🙂 I burst out to someone the other day: "I don't have a mental illness" - so much for accepting myself. I think I just don't like the terminology.

What is it with dreaming? I dream so vivid, not only nightmares but in general. I dream about work, my fears of not working well enough at the moment, I talk in my sleep and sometimes I wake myself up because I'm walking (in my bed) or talking or grabbing something or moving my arms. It's really weird. When I was falling asleep yesterday afternoon I woke myself up blowing kisses - either at my husband or my parrot, so it's not all stressful, but it is weird. I know nightmares, but I don't think I have ever been so active in bed. Hence I don't feel really rested in the morning.

Anyway, got to get myself ready now - as I said, early morning, long day ahead!

Here is me again:

I hope you all had somewhat a restful night and I wish you all a good start to a new week.

Big hugs to all xox

Hi @Former-Member

Good luck with your appointments today, hope they go well.

Glad to see you are going to commit to taking your meds. And talking with your psych about it and addressing yoiur other issues is a good idea.

Well done for not contacting helpline for 2 days, that is really good.

Have a nice day, hugs to you 🙂

xxxooo