Taking charge of my well being!

Hi @Former-Member

You have great qualities that come out in what you choose to post and not post.

Take care, thinking of you

Apple

Hi @Former-Member

Sorry to read you are not in a good spot at the moment 😞

Pls be gentle with yourself, what plans do you have for today?

Hi @BlueBay

I am still in my pjs. I need to get showered and go to work, I am already late, but thankfully I only have one one hour meeting today and apart from that I can do "my real work". I think the added stress this week combined with longer work days, constant meetings and early mornings has just taken its toll.

I am just struggling with all the new emotions coming up that I actually don't know - shame, guilt, regret, grief... - I've never felt so many different feelings, and I just don't know what to do with them. I just want to stop them and go back to fighting mode & happy mode. j

Hi @Former-Member

With those different emotions that you're feeling - are you able to sit with it and write down what it is that is making you feel like that eg. feeling shame. I know it's not easy as I struggle with these emotions but for different reasons. But I remember in group therapy we used coloured balls (don't know if you have seen my post on that) and we got to hold different coloured balls - green=guilt, red=anger; blue=sadness; yellow=anxiety. We would then chose a ball, hold it and talk about it, how that emotion affected your body where you felt the emotion. I found it helpful because I could express my emotion although at times it was very emotional.

I totally get what you're saying about wanting to stop all the emotions and going back to being happy mode.

Hope you have an okay day 🙂

take care xxxooo

Oh @Former-Member

I am hearing you. Feel for you. Can you take the day off work and just rest up?

Don't forget you have all of us on here to support you; you're not alone.

Take care

Aw @Former-Member

It is too hard to "like" your post because it is so sad and so desperate

btw - you are not rolling around in a pity-party - you are battling - and I have read posts for years and know the difference - really well

You know - for some reason we were not given the gift to see ourselves - I know people stay in their jammies all day and why not - I did on Tuesday - and I would have today - but it's too cold

So wherever you are you might be cold too - and staying at home when you are feeling so bad is a good idea

The name of this thread is Taking change of my well being - and so that's what you are doing

You hate your medication - I can't comment on that - that is between you and your doctor and it would be wrong of me to suggest anything about that - except a lot of people hate their medication.

You feel as if your medical team is letting you down - well whatever - your feelings are real - maybe they are not addressing what the deep problem is - maybe they haven't found it yet - they are human too - alas - maybe they are thinking about making money but I also think a lot of them have our best interests at heart - and they can't read minds either - which is a pity - how great if they could

You will find your way out of the fog - it's hard - that's all

Take it easy on yourself

Decadian