Taking charge of my well being!

Hi @Former-Member

I am reading your story - and wondering what comes next - it sounds really really hard

Really - I get it with the repressed memories - after my mother died I was free to remember what had happened when I was a small child - I don't remember how old I was but with the memories came emotions I had no control over and mostly I was really angry

Anger can be really good - we need to be angry to get over the depression that is anger turned inward

I can't imagine what your feelings are like and what you are remembering - but I do care about you and thinking about you

But all this time in hospital - must mean something positive - I think it was you - not sure - who didn't talk about the really deep problems on your last visit

Keep on keeping on - there has to be a way home - but I think that path is working through all the shit - not running from it

Hugs

Decadian

Very good ideas @Former-Member

Giving the pillow what for is harmless but a wonderful way of getting the anger out - how long ago was it - over 30 years - when I drew a face on a pillow and kicked it around the house yelling at it - the pillow was wrecked - but so way

And tearing a large sheet of new papers into tiny bits - that sounds boring but boy - a person has to be very angry to do that one - I think I have done it - and there is nothing as useless as yesterday's newpaper - if anyone asks - you are recycling in a big way - and when you have finished with one sheet - start on another

@Former-Member - they might sound like weird ideas - but they work - they must have worked - I have not felt angry enough to do anything like that for years and years

Still thinking of you - thinking of both of you

Decadian

oh dear @Former-Member lol

Ah - My friend @Former-Member

Dare I ask?

What is the "chemical hammer"?

Decadian

..pretty much.. can be useful @Former-Member as first aid or in a crisis, not as a lifestyle so much maybs lol