Taking charge of my well being!

Good morning,

it's too early to be up, but I have been restless all night. I prepared something for my therapy last night and that was a pretty bad decision from my side. It feels like something is pulling me back to resolve some of the feelings I am having, but I am not sure if I can do it on my own. I don't see the sense in going to hospital where you learn CBT and coping techniques, one of my coping techniques backfired last night and left me raw. I think I would just like a place where I can throw a massive tantrum as long as I need to and scream and shout and get it all out and then slowly learn how to rebuild my past. I don't need group sessions, I need someone to take me through my life step by step and uncover all the hurt and bring it into persepective - and preferably not in 5 years of therapy...

Time is so precious, I don't want to waste my life on the past.

That is an excellent question @Former-Member

"What if you finally understand what the world is all about and you don't like it"

Well - yes - I actually understand that question and I can give you an answer

You will try and change it - I have -

I made sure my son had not died in vain

I have demonstrated in public for different issues - from gaining an increase in wages for Female Clerks when I was 19 - to marching and chanting against the French Atomic Tests at the Muruora Atoll in the Pacific - I have written to politicans speaking against proposed mining at Antarctica - the damming of the Gordon River in Tasmania - I joined a proactive group locally to get traffic lights on a busy road in this area - I started young and kept going

This is what you will do if you find out you don't like the world - you will be fine then - I can promise you

It is a powerful feeling to have the chance to speak in public and on TV about subjects that concern you

Doing things like this for the world outside yourself might seem hard - but doing them is a wonderful feeling

Go for it - find out all you can

Decadian

Hi @Former-Member,

I understand you are in a mood today and you are very worried that you don't like the world. I think a lot of us here on SANE can relate to feeling that way. If you are depressed, the world can seem much worse than what it is.....

I like to try and think of the world as a "neutral" place. When good things happen to me, it looks like a good, supportive and happy world. When bad things happen to me, I see the world as a threatening, lonely place.

But good and bad things happen to all of us... I think that ultimately they balance each other out. The world is what you make of it.

Seek out positive people and try to engage in positive experiences. Make your own world a good one, filled with like-minded people who care about things.

Yes, there is heaps of 'badness' out there but you give the badness more power by focusing on it. Which, unfortunately, is what depressed people do. i know the feeling.