why can't I cope longer?

@Faith-and-Hope , yeah, a little confused... especially with what hubby's doing - retired, travelling mommy's boy... Your kidults are lucky that you're there for them, have so many resources and uproot yourself for them. Selling he tamily home must be hard, and watching the life fade away from it, esp garden. Change is hard. I'm impressed you keep yourself busy. I'm trying but it all seems hopeless on days like today. I don't have much left in me. You still have so much up and running to keep you going. The art is a gift, and faith, and your kids and hopefully your studies... Definately a lot to distract. Keep going. Don't give up. Not sure when it happened but I think I gave up somewhere there, abandoned everything, and now I don't have strength to keep going, remake myself... start from scratch... rebuild... everythings Orjust wrong without my girl, its too hard... or so it feels tonight. Anyway, dont give up, just, hold on, you're amazing you know ❣️

You hold on too @Former-Member . You will be exhausted from the upheaval of your own move, and how emotional it was to leave the place where your girl is ..... and what is happening with your dad, and especially the tricky family you have. It will take months to recover your energy levels. That was me last year when we moved. Total inertia, totally blindsided and winded ..... keep taking those baby steps and feeding the birds. New opportunities will emerge in your new place, and you have had lovely support from that neighbour who helped you with the cupboard.

Gently, gently. Give it time, and don’t be so hard on yourself Hon. Self-care activities can be small ones, like hand cream, or planting a seedling. Have you planted something for your girl yet ?

Energy eventually starts to return by itself as you get on with things @Former-Member .

Ignore the former-church friends as well-meaning advice that is not right for you at this time ..... I think you know that but guilty feelings creep in with their judgment ..... church will happen in its own time. It’s hard to start up new bonds. They take time, and spending time in other people’s company doing things, and you will venture out as and when you can. They are not the boss of you. You are quite capable of making your own decisions about what feels right for you.

I have made some friends at uni, by hanging around together in classes and the cafe, but not enough to connect outside of uni yet. I am the newcomer, and they have their own lives and friendship outside uni too. It will take me time, and I do get lonely, but this is where I have chosen to work from, what we have got going on at home, so I am not free to do whatever I want, whenever I want, and have to find some sort of balance as I go along. I will get there, and so will you.

Be kind to yourself.

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Sorry you get lonely too, hugz😢

Guess we WILL 'get there' each time, if we keep putting one foot in front of the other...

You've been helpful tonight ta. I'm really tired though, so Good Night, God Bless 💜

Goodnight @Former-Member . Sleep well 💤💕🌷

Proud of you too @Former-Member That is quite some achievement for today

On snail pace here myself but managed to get the washing in - it is very windy here and looks like rain is not far away. Been doing a little planning this afternoon with the footy on tv in the background. Trying not to get overwhelmed by how much I have to do tonight and how little I have actually done over the weekend. Aiming to get the planning done for the next 3 days at least then can deal with Friday's on my day off Thursday.

It will be lovely to plant something for your D and if you do that in a pot you can take it with you if you eventually move again. Something purple would be lovely

@outlander @@i .are you feeling a little more on the top of things this week? Like it when you pop by and say hi 💜

@Adge, @Adge @ how's your weekend been? Getting some energy back? Any dates? Hope you're ok? Can't seem to find your favourite thread? I saw a new bird today, which I thought was a baby starling at first, but it was pitch black all over with a skinny little orange beak. Might look it up later. 🍀🐦❣️

@ @Appleblossom @ wondering how you're going too, hsvehseeing you pop by here and there sometimes. Miss you Sista. Must remember to pop over 'fragile thread' and catch up. You take care 💜💜💜

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