why can't I cope longer?

I like your Peace Dove (carrying Twig) picture @Former-Member That's lovely.

Several of my neighbours (not nice people) need a Judgment Day - I don't see one coming (yet).

My Birds Always think it's Christmas, or the Promised Land, or a Land Flowing with Milk & honey - When they escape the Cage or Aviary.

Whoopee they go.....Rather stressful for me, yet they're having a Wonderful time.

Just as well Canary wasn't outside in Aviary - I've never got any back, that got out of my Aviaries.

I have Fabric Mask too, tolerate it slightly better than paper Dust Mask (not much).

I keep Masks in my Car, because I'm always driving to get there first.

Yep, most of my relatives, including Mum & Brothers - are in Sydney, right in the middle of spreading Delta virus.

So yes I am worried about them.

If my bro who is Blind & intellectually disable got this virus, he might die - he has multiple illnesses, impaired liver, & maybe impaired immune system.

Yes that is very kind & compassionate of you - to be Praying for your relatives, people who wished you harm.

Apparently Forgivesness & Letting Go is Good for us (Good for the person doing it) - Although I cannot do that with some people.

Adge

Thanks @Adge, haha! your birds are so gorgeous, love how you light up when you talk about them. You quoted a few scripture references there: Promised Land, Flowing with Milk & honey... 🤔 I keep Masks in my Car too, after I got caught out once.
Don't know why but I thought your relatives lived in Singleton, the Hunter. Are you able to ring an of them, let them know you're concerned? Praying for relatives helps the forgiveness without putting myself in harm's way. You're right how it sets us free more than them. The best thing that helped me 'forgive' (relinquish my right to hold their debut against them)... was when I realised it wasn't 'letting them off the hook' rather, it is TAKING THEM OFF MY HOOK AND PUTTING THEM ON GOD'S.
One of my answers is overwhelmingly fearful of dying I'm told... he'd rather that than repent I guess, he is 80 now and oh boy, his fate in God's hands is nothing I could dish up (Matthew 18:6) No wonder he's scared.
Bit triggering sorry, need to change subject.
What did you do today?
I rang a couple of old friends in Sydney, been a while and it went well so glad I stepping up as I've been very withdrawn from everyone lately. One lovely friend of my mother's, she's 89 now, still at home and just lovely. Mum loved her too. She inspires so many with her loving nature and resilience.
Gotta go. You take care Adge- 🐥🦉🕊️

Hope your relos stay safe @Former-Member @Adge 🙏💞

Yes all those Scripture References seem to fit the situation @Former-Member I'm rather, 30 years after studying Theology & Biblical Studies.

Yet much of it is still in my head - at least the intuitive sense of it is.

Almost completed Bachelor of Theology - Then Converted it into a Bachelor of Arts in Theology & Education Studies.

That's what I Graduated in - before I then got my Graduate Diploma of Science in Environmental Management.

None of those Studies ever earned me any $$ (they cost me $15K) - Was only ever paid rock bottom Minimum Wage, all my decades in the Workforce.

Sorry if that's a long Spiel - No I'm not Publicising or Selling myself..

It's just that I never ever get the opportunity to mention my Studies or what I've done to anyone....

No one is ever usually interested...

Good night.

Adge

I picked up this little white cupboard off gumtree, to use as a blanket cupboard. Often when I open it, and only when I open it, im overcome with visions of a little girl asleep in there, and it troubles me, and i want to save her. Not sure what to do so Last night I prayed to God over the space, and for the soul. What else can I do? Guess I'll get rid of it if I have to 🌺

@Sha51 love you 😍

You are such a beautiful soul @Former-Member

Hoping the prayers work to bring peace 🙏💞🌷

Thank you @Anastasia 💐 😞

Hi 👋 @Clawde ✔️ @Adge ✔️ @Appleblossom ✔️ @Emelia8 ✔️

How are you all?

Thanks for ticks 😒

CLAWDE - sorry but I don't understand the context of your post to Shaz51 - can you explain? I did get you 24 tick tonight. Talk to me!

Seems hard for many to engage in discussion with me. I'm wondering if 'the team' has imposed this restraint (since it's across the board). It's not as if I'm not trying. your ✔️s just tell me you've read it, not what you think. Its Almost insulting really,

Didn't think I'd have to spell it out with so many empaths here, but i'm trying to work out

- why I'm seeing this child in cupboard?

- why does it upset me?

- what do I do with it?

- is it demonic? Or God?

Is the little girl someone who died & should i go back and talk with the sellers about the cupboards history? What then?

- is it echos of past child trauma - a child who was repeatedly locked in it? Maybe even died there.

My grandmother was a medium. It's against my faith to talk to the dead.

Is it more likely my brain is just mixing up this beautiful little white cupboard with losing my own daughter? A grief thing? Or maybe my own lost childhood? (Inner child).

How do we work this stuff out?

I felt connected to the cupboard the moment I saw it..weird I know.

Guess Some questions just dont have answers

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:face_with_rolling_eyes:Maybe I need an antipsychotic? lol