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Something’s not right

why can't I cope longer?

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why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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Unknown userMember

Re: why can't I cope longer?

You're funny @Adge - thanks for the morning smile 😃 What you doing today? Still raining here so indoor activities. Still haven't unpacked properly so plenty to do.
@ Mazarita, hello, yes, might make the cottage cafe a regular thing after my workout, kind of a reward 🏆

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AdgeSenior Contributor

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Hi @Former-Member I have not managed much today.

Feeling extremely tired/ maybe Dissociation as well.

Along with several things seeming to badly trigger me - Which upped anxiety & distress feelings through the Roof.

So "Getting back to Baseline" (as Psychs say) - Settling myself, seems to be No.1 Priority.

Then I hope to be able to Tackle/ Achieve something.

Adge

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Unknown userMember

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Sorry to hear that @Adge Do you want to talk about your triggers? Did you go out today? Ware that shirt?
What do you do to bring your stress levels down? Do you have a meditation or abyogw routine? I do breathing meditation full body scan to help ground myself.
Sorry I've taken so long to reply, need to spend less time online, but hope you're settled enough or exhausted enough to be sleeping soundly already.
Please Let me know how you are in the morning 🙏☘️

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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Quick hi @Former-Member before I get up and ready for work. Hope today is kind to you 🌹

Sorry @Adge yesterday was difficult. Hoping for a better day for you today 🙏

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AdgeSenior Contributor

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Oh s...tt @Former-Member I just realised that I never did let you know (how I was) -

-The next morning, like you asked me to (out of care & concern).

I'm Sorry....

I'm usually very meticulous with responding to kind requests & concern.

I never read that bit - Asking me to let you know.

Otherwise I definitely would have let you know ASAP.

To be honest, things got much worse, soon after that.

I've had many nights of terribly disrupted sleep (since then) -

-Due mainly to a long string of unexpected shock emails & sms's, from Unemployment (Jobsearch) Services...

- On Good Friday Public Holiday etc etch....

-Demanding Tripple my Job Application (Jobsearch) Requirements (15 instead of 5).

-Terminating my Online Employment Service (sending me to a Face to Face Jobsearch provider).

-Threatening to Suspend my Unemployment Allowance, unless I signed immediately (agreed to 15 Job Applications).

- All without any Prior warning, all Without Reason (There was None).

* I have Always Met All Requirements.

* I have Never Defaulted on a Single Thing (Not Any).

- So there was absolutely No Justification, No Reason Whatsoever.

* That is Just How they Operate (Always) Apparently - They Like to & Enjoy Threatening people.

- This is very hard to come to terms with.

Yoga Teacher is suddenly Leaving/ Terminating my Yoga Classes (Fri & Sat) - As of this week.

So you can see, it has been Quite a Tail-Spin....

No wonder my Anxiety went Sky-High, & I've not been sleeping well at all.

Just letting you know, because you did ask.

I will be much more Positive next time, I promise.

Still looking for Huge Silver Linings - I do deserve them (so do you), & things to be Grateful for...

Adge

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AdgeSenior Contributor

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@Former-MemberYou asked:

"What do you do to bring your stress levels down? Do you have a meditation or a Yoga routine? I do breathing meditation full body scan to help ground myself". - Sorry I never Saw/ Never read that Question (from you), either.....

- I do Daily Breathing/ Mindfulness Meditations (including Body Scan), several times each day.

- I've had to Increase the Number & the Length (How Long) of Meditations, to deal with What's been Happening (So many Sudden Stressors/ Triggers).

Thanks so much @Former-Member for your Amazing Care & Concern.

I never meant to Stress You Out - by leaving you Wondering, with No Reply from me.

Have a Good Night...

Adge

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Unknown userMember

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That's ok @ Adge, for those uplifting words. I'd forgotten anyway. You're amazing. Sorry but I'm feeling stalked here, (paranoid or whatever negative label the know-it-all's are in the mood for) 💙

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor

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Just dropping in some love @Former-Member

You have been handing it out in droves and it seems you could do with some yourself about now. Hope you are ok? Sorry someone has hurt you 😔

People can be careless with words and actions. Hugs and love Eor xox

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AdgeSenior Contributor

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(((( @Former-Member )))) Hugs....

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Unknown userMember

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Aww thanks @Anastasia, it's just the isolation of it all. Torture. But those flowers, they're lovely 😢 thank you so much 💐💙
@Adge - Thanks for the hugz, means a lot, especially today 🕊️💌
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