why can't I cope longer?

Thank you @Zoe7 Much appreciated.

My thoughts are with you @Former-Member Especially with your Br saying such horrible insensitive things.

I've had emotionally tough week - too many triggers I think.

Yes intense emotional flashbacks too (you mentioned in earlier post).

So my only posts all week - have been just now in Worry Room thread.

That Zoe is responding to.

Adge

@Adge Here for a little while if you would like some company

@Former-Member Been ready back through your earlier posts now I am in a better frame of mind to do so. This coming few weeks are going to be tough and it is horrible that your family continue to be so insensitive and awful to you. You certainly do not need that reminder of your daughter - she is with you every day - and with the upcoming anniversaries for her and your Mum it makes it even more horrible for you. I cannot believe your bro would be so insensitive but from what you have desctribed previsoulsy I am not surprised he wants to get his hands on your Dad's inheritance ...where were they all when you were caring for both your Mum and Dad????? It makes me angry that you are being treated this way and that your bro is only thinking about money - shows just how much he cared for your Dad and just how self centred he is. You are so much better than any of your family and deserve so much better. 💜💚💙🧡💛

Ditto to @Zoe7 ,s words @Former-Member

I second that - You know I would.

Adge

Morning @Former-Member

Just quietly dropping by to check you're okay.

Thinking of you my beautiful friend.

Emelia 💞 👀👂

Thanks for your replies & support @Anastasia @Adge @Zoe7 @Emelia8 ... Appreciate the supports too, it was a horrible day yesterday. I'm Sorry but I'm not up to leaving this thread much, barely coping here, again 😞 still love Yas (don't forget me) 💞.

🐦Adge, thanks for posts, I know it can get hard for you (((((💛))))) Sorry, i didn't know you were struggling my friend, do you know your trigger this time round? Ive had a huge spike in anxiety since my son has gone into lockdown there in Brisbane 😟 Gosh it is horrible living in our own heads sometimes 💥 Are you getting any of this beautiful rain we're enjoying in the East? I've been cold today - sloppyjoe weather ☔ Hang in there🙏

🦋Zoe7 thanks for defending me re sibs.. "where were they when caring for Mum and Dad?" Indeed! TheyYou & Adge seem to really 'get' how they are, how the impact me. I know I'm sensitive (theyve told me all my life) be this is more than me. Helps to be heard... helps a lot thanks! Not sure I'm 'better' or worse - but I know what I did to help... without agenda, and so does God. Hard to stop the paranoia gene lol. How's your family? Hope ya dad's back home for the w'end? I pray both ya parents bounce back to 'normal' life quickly.

🌹EMELIA thanks for checking in on me this morning. I've been consumed all day with my son being in Lockdown suddenly (Brisbane) 😢 I was toying with a surprise for his B'day Tues 😞 but... Just a bit out of it... think my internal stress meter is really high. While tidying the laundry I had to hide the rope asbit triggered a frightening SI visual. It jusvpops in my head - hate it. But right to put it in its place - 'just a thought' - ONLY a thought and not a mandate, not what I want, not who I am... It's just a thought. Gosh it's exhausting. Maybe I am schizo, getting these powerful messages in my head,voutbofvthe blue. Anyway, bet ya sorry you asked lol But i've just taken anxiety supp+ and gone to bed early, it's raining and cold here today 😢☔🌧️ literally & figuratively 😞 Hey, I agree with Myboy - you have a way with words, and such strong empathy too I think,v I do value you and your huge contribution for me, and across the forums 💞 don't know how you do it... must be your superpower 💥

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@Former-Member I will never forget what they all put you through when you gave up everything to be with your parents. They would not have done the same so you have more compassion and care in your little finger than any of them. Hold your head up high Hon knowing you are the better person - we see that, we know that and we appreciate you more than you would know for being that.

You do not have to go anywhere but here Hon. Hugs and hugs and hugs

We won't forget you @Former-Member

Even though I'm unable to write much (esp at moment) - I'm still thinking of you.

No rain here - Rain in Summer here is very very Rare, & then just a 5 minute sprinkle.

Just the heat & Dry.

One trigger was organisers of MH Lunch Group Barraging me with unexpected (& unhelpful) Job Application Advice - For almost 2 hours (totally overwhelming).

When it was supposed to be a Light Hearted Coffee Catchup (it wasn't).

2nd trigger was a Mum phone call, straight after that - When already overwhelmed.

I can only not be triggered or overwhelmed by Mum, when I'm in a strong state (I wasn't).

Then the Shower Drain totally blocked up (that's a trigger) - Water filled the entire Bath (underneath).

I've now spent 3 days, several attempts - Trying to unblock it.

Plus I got a very defensive overwhelming email (again unhelpful advice) - Same day as the Coffee Catchup unhelpful advice.

So went into total overwhelm (at some point) - & stayed there for most/ all of this week.

Adge

Anytime @Former-Member Mean every word 👍

Just got a message from my sister with a photo of her new kitten on the side table. He is so small he looks like an ornament - soooo cute.

Oh what a day for you @Adge No wonder you feel overwhelmed