why can't I cope longer?

@Former-Member

Simple Self Respect helps a lot. You have already done a lot of the hard yards and it is alright if you put your feet up sometimes.

I grappled with being a burden on the state, and have turned a corner in that regard. The range of rich to poor is so big, if the state can afford it, the state owes it, in my mind. There is also this theory called Modern Monetary Theory MMT.

It is why I get on my soapbox about my sister and I working for tax office ... I am done wearing guilt trips vaguely tossed about in media. I am keenly aware that Jesus hung out with tax collectors rather than more popular people. It is pretty boring really being a tax collector: lot of sums, adding up and very cranky and rich "clients". Any wonder I turned to music....lol

Fur babies do that to us @Former-Member I can always rely on mine to know when I need some extra love - they are very perceptive ...also noisy when they need to be fed lol Cat starts meowing well before feeding time. Toby follows her by jumping up and down off the couch - doesn't bark though which is good.

I am really glad to see you here this morning Hon - know how hard it is when we are feeling so low so sending you a lot of love and some extra squishy hugs

Good morning @Former-Member I hope there is some sunshine where you are today.

I liked the Catherine Marshall quite reminded me I read her book To live Again after H died and found it very helpful. I might read it again if I can find it.

A loving hug for you 💜🤗💜

You are so right about grief @Former-Member and anyone who says “time heals” has probably never been through grief.

Anyway, I’m going back under the doona today.

Thinking of you my friend 💙❤️💙

@Eve7 @Peri @Zoe7

@Former-Member

I have seen people living on very little. I live a frugal life. I prefer it. I dont buy into consumerism or capitalism. Never did. Felt a major conflict in conscience when I was a company director for 8 years with my exhusband, but justified it as children were young.We disbanded the company together as he wanted benefits from IBM and liked not having to be responsible for everything. There is a level we need to be financially responsible, but there are limits. Working for the tax office before that, showed me how deceitful rich people are to keep their money flowing. I warned our accountant not to be shady. If society devolves and the money dries up, I will adapt, so I really dont worry about it. I want to teach my son and grandson to have that survival ability. We do not know what will happen in the future. If the money does not dry up ... google and amazon are unspeakably rich ... cant be bothered to quote numbers. Big business need poor people as prey. We will see what happens.

I could not believe it when journos recently starting milking public compassion for the struggles of 'poor' business ... Nah ... Bulldust ...Not buying it ... cos I know how business push their tax deduction etc .. nobody could be compassionate about me and my family ... until very recently (last 5 years on here) ... thanks for remembering my sis. I really appreciate it.

NObody in real life, except my son, has made caring statements about my family. My gp might get it. I almost lost her, as she moved clinic, but found her again last week. Gives me hope.