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why can't I cope longer?

Unknown userMember09 Jan 2019, 10:22 pm AEDT

why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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Unknown userMember13 Sept 2020, 11:26 pm AEST

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Rang hospital to see how dad is. Change of shift - his nurse had never looked after him. Couldn't tell me if he is eating, on IV antibiotics or even able to walk 😞 I just wanna go get him.

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Unknown userMember14 Sept 2020, 1:43 am AEST

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Thanks again @Shaz51 and @Sherry for tagging me (support button) to my old post on the other thread back in May that says:
"Life is tough my dear
but so are you" I've taken screenshots to email the @@moderator &@Former-Member as I'm beginning to see it as repetitive harrassment. I don't know if you have trouble thinking of something to say yourself after I pour my heart out here, so you just repeat over and over that post of mine. I think you've made your point so please don't sent it to me anymore. I get it. We don't need to be told to be 'tough' when broken 😢 Thank you so much for taking the time remind me of the one not so sensitive post I've placed, but you, you've gone above and beyond by rehashing it over and over. In Howmface, instead of writing your own :face_with_rolling_eyes: do you want me to leave the forums? You first!

I thought the

colours in it were beautiful at the time 😏 back in May.

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Emelia8Senior Contributor14 Sept 2020, 5:21 am AEST

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Are you okay @Former-Member ? You sound quite annoyed, and Im sorry about that. I dont understand what you are saying in your post above regarding a post you made on another thread? I thought you can only "support" any post once. Perhaps there is a glitch with your notifications?

I note you tried to tag Sherry here and also attempted to post a picture (I think) to her old thread. I will remind you that Sherry left the forums several months ago.

Clearly EOR, if you feel you are being harrassed in any way, you definitely should report it to the managers or moderators.

I can see that you are worrying about your dad, and understandably so. Its such a worry when our loved ones are so far away, and made much worse with current state border closures. I hope next time you phone, you get someone a bit more knowledgeable and helpful.

Please take care @Former-Member

Emelia 💕

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Zoe7Senior Contributor14 Sept 2020, 6:35 am AEST

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Very much feeling for you @Former-Member and really hope you can get some answers about how your dad is soon. It must be incredibly hard for you being so far away from him and not being able to get any answers so sending you my love and thoughts Hon

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Unknown userMember14 Sept 2020, 9:30 am AEST

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Hi there @Former-Member ,

It seems like things are diffcult for you with everything that's happening at the moment. Please know that we are all here to support you on the forums

Unfortunately, we haven't been able to locate an email from you, nor have we received your response to our last email. Can you please reach out to us at team@saneforums.org to confirm we've got the correct email address for you? Thanks EOR 🌻

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AdgeSenior Contributor17 Sept 2020, 9:29 pm AEST

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Hi @Former-Member I'm sorry that I've not been able to communicate much recently.

Like you, I receive mainly only nuisance & spam phone calls (daily) - far more than any personal communication (virtually none).

Leaves me feeling very harassed & unsafe, in my own home.

Just know that I'm thinking of you - even when I post (say) nothing....

Hugs...

Adge

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Unknown userMember18 Sept 2020, 4:04 am AEST

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That's sweet @Adge, thank you. Lonely is hard. Mobile phones are great 'cause we can block those neusence numbers, also set ringtones for certain individuals... and put default ringtone on silent...

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Unknown userMember18 Sept 2020, 4:17 am AEST

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Forced myself to go for long walk yesterday, bit sore since, and slept the rest of the day away. But interacted briefly with ppl at dog park, and the gardens atm are amazing atm. Some people go to so much trouble. Gorgeous!
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Unknown userMember18 Sept 2020, 4:27 am AEST

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@Former-Member - I did email you but find responses upsetting, with naught constructive to say. I hope you can get to the bottom of all the "glitche" channelled my way.
Currawongs are singing 💙

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AdgeSenior Contributor18 Sept 2020, 4:10 pm AEST

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I like this one @Former-Member Maybe you do too...

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