why can't I cope longer?

I went for a walk today... first time in months. FurBaby loved it too.

Good news - my son did go look at the property and mailed me photos. He's not adding any commentary, and I'm respecting his request to not talk over the weekend. Just said thanks and sent him the contract to privy. Am I being fair?

This is a dream of mine, to have a little retreat in the hills, and something my boy will appreciate in time i hope. I'd really love to share my dream with someone. He's not up to it. Now I can't travel, this is a good distraction. I'll burn out almost all the $ left over from selling my house, so it's gotta work. I know I'm not allowed to live there without approval, but a weekend here and there won't matter unless the neighbours are idiots which is unlikely.

DO I SOUND RATIONAL? Everyone irl tells roadblock my dreams, my visions, with all the negatives possibilities and how I won't cope. I might not cope, but what does that look like? At least I'll have somewhere in the hills that's mine to retreat to. Couple of big trees and I'll be happy.there, even if just for a moment.

Do you wanna know my dream progress?

Betta have brunch, got the shakes this morning, maybe the asthma puffer or low blood sugar, or chill in the air... or just excited about the property... adrenolin... think I'll do some gardening...

@Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Adge anyone else around?

Hi @Former-Member I'm stuffed no energy, got log off & lie down soon.

I did see your post yesterday - sorry couldn't write a reply.

Burning through $$ & financial stress - I know it well, am in similar situation.

Worrying, yes, definitely feel for you.

Sorry about that.

I've burned through a large part of Dad's inheritance (from sale of childhood house) - just to pay my living expenses (not earning enough).

That money needs to be for (& last through) my retirement.

Mum kept most of it for herself.

I don't know about your dreams - try not to worry.

They're usually about how you feel inside yourself - not usually about external events or people.

Sometimes our unconscious trying to tell us something, that we may have missed.

Will try to say more later.

Adge

@Former-Member

There are some small kit homes that even with construction costs are very affordable which might be adequate for you and cheaper than renting.

Going for a walk sounds good @Former-Member I have not been doing enough of that.

Dream of Retreat in hills sounds refreshing - something to aspire to.

Need to get away, somewhere (maybe exotic)?....

Me too, I never go anywhere, except to shops & work.

Last holiday (3 years ago), was nearly all spent at home.

Thinking of you.

It's blustery, very windy, overcast, & a bit gloomy here.

Adge

Your dream sounds really lovely @Former-Member ❣️

Have you looked at "tiny homes" ? I agree with @Former-Member - there might be a tiny kit-home available that is cheaper than renting.

@Former-Member

You would need to check with council re: tiny homes as most are classed in the same way as caravans. Also be mindful that to be able to live in a place and access things like garbage collection you need a dwelling not just a shed. Some councils will give a camping permit or the like which allows one to live on a property whilst building a house.

Thanks @Former-Member @Adge @Faith-and-Hope I only have 50k to play with so a 'livable' dwelling is out of the question for me in the near future, even a 'tiny home' BUT down the track I can apply to council to have my shed upgraded. Id need a septic built and water tank. There's no sewage or town water there. Its just i feel my money is safer IN LAND as I've been too gullible and given away more than 35k (to needy famly + friends iicant so no to) and I'm just spending too much on stupid things. I donno how rational I am anymore. Just trying to find peace.

Crying lot today. Need my son but I think I've lost him 😭

@, @Adge sorry to read you've been feeling so crook earlier today and hope whatever it is passed quickly. I appreciate you supporting my dream ta. Im feeling so insecure and alone today, and teary😢... eith SI re my son's treatment... so not much good to anyone sorry. Just gotta do the best we can 💙

Depending on its size, you may well be able to adapt existing shed into a dwelling @Former-Member. A lot of granny flats are based on 10x6m. You can pick up 2nd hand kitchens quite cheaply on gumtree or the like and I don't think ordinary septics are too expensive as compared to eco friendly ones. Apart from the bathroom area, curtains, bookcases or other cupboards could form the dividing walls for lounge/bedroom areas. There are likely minimum council requirements as to what constitutes a residence vs a shed.

Exactly @Former-Member - now we're on the same page. This is a pic of the property, up to the power pole (the sheds are the neighbours). All this 1/4acre block has is power to a pole for the bore, which needs a pump etc, and x3 fences. Theres no shed yet - the pic is one I'd like to install if affordable.

Needto make a list of priorities .Be good to have a toot and water tank first maybe. I'm excited about doing it up, you have some great suggestions. 3 drawer filing cabinets make great kitchen benches + storage I've found. But first things first, do I sign this contract❓🤪