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why can't I cope longer?

Unknown userMember09 Jan 2019, 10:22 pm AEDT

why can't I cope longer?

Something's not right alright... Not sure why I'm falling to pieces atm and short of listening ears. Hope someone here can put up with me.

I'm walking in circles at home... well, not literally, just can't seem to stay focused or finish anything... if I can even remember what it is I got out of the chair to do half the time...

And snappy with people, everywhere, rude even (which is so out of character for me), the slightest hint of being 'had' or criticised or misunderstood... oh boy, I just can't keep it in atm. The internal pressure cooker wants to explode & I don't know how to stop it.

I'm at the crossroads in life, moving and deciding if to bother starting again, or just quit on life / die.

And what's scary about that lately, is the thought of it doesn't make me scared anymore - like its just what I'm supposed to do. Do you think God would factor in a premature departure (suicide / depression?) like he accepts other illnesses that separate spirit & body?

Its just those kinds of dark thoughts, but not like crisis level or that, just trying to find my way, or other alternatives, something to look fwd to.... to keep me here. I can't see a future worth living & don't feel the internal resources keep fighting.

Don't tell me to run off & get antidepressants... I'm on them. Or psychotherapy - that's in progress... I think maybe I just want to be heard. Not changedchanged (disapproved of)... just cared about... Is that too much to ask from life? Oh I know God loves me and all that, but I still live on earth...

Do you know what I'm trying to say?Does anyone ever feel this way? I just feel so totally spent - the end of the line... ... ...

My two church supports are away at the moment, not that I lean on them heavy, I'm just conscious there gone...

Ha! Horrible feeling like the only close people in ya life need to take a holiday away from you, well, maybe some of the others I notice they have to deal with more, none the less - feeling abandoned 😞

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AdgeSenior Contributor16 Apr 2020, 4:39 pm AEST

Re: why can't I cope longer?

That's an Excellent Happy Dance @Former-Member I wish I could do that one.

Hi @Former-Member Very glad to "see" you.

Adge

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Unknown userMember16 Apr 2020, 4:59 pm AEST

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@Adge thanks, sent one to @Former-Member too whose back I think. So cool Sherry!!! @

I'm not feeling well, got a temp and nausea + lethargy... Think I may not have cooked the chicken well enough last night? Hope it wasn't the takeaway I splurged on Tuesday PM (on a mercy cabin fever mercy dash / drive breakout 9pm, with dog), my first time out in 3 weeks, oh well, if it's that I know where I got it. Need supplies though, or maybe not. Just make do.

Finally seem to be getting somewhere re MH support... Talked with intake officer from LikeMind organisation today. She'll check in with me once a week ''till Psychologist becomes available. Pushing for Grief specialist (I never even walked through the nighty girl died), and she went through a Safety Plan for those suicidal waves. Kinda nice having a voice intheknow. Gotta go, so tired 😴

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Shaz51Senior Contributor16 Apr 2020, 5:11 pm AEST

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I'm not feeling well, got a temp and nausea + lethargy...----- ohhh pleas take care @Former-Member

hope you feel better soon

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 12:14 pm AEST

Re: why can't I cope longer?

My breakfast failed

I got coughed near at the supermarket last night

My son's not talking to me again.

Made a Real-estate deposit for block of land yesterday, and made offer of 3k less re hidden experiences. Her response rocked me. She said: "$37,000 is the price. If you are unable to meet that price I am sorry. Please forward your bank details so that I can return your deposit"

WT#! I have the right to haggle don't I? This response really shook me, I've had to lay down and not sure what to do. I'm shaking. I don't understand, can anyone help me understand? I'm even crying about it. Its stolen my excitement. @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Adge

My son, high covid risk of asthma, said last week he's thinking he's thinking of calling it a day, walking into a crowd and take a deep breath 😞 I don't know how to help him, and i don't want to lose another child.

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 12:53 pm AEST

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Yikes @Former-Member not one of those days when everything that can go wrong will go wrong 😵.

Real estate is always negotiable prior to signing a contract, so if you haven't signed then any offer you make should be passed on to the vendor. If you have signed and are not prepared to pay what you agreed to and you have a cooling off period, you can opt out of the purchase within that time frame.

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 1:33 pm AEST

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Oh thanks @Former-Member, thought so but think she was trying to bully me, triggered anxiety / panic big time. I'm not sure I should put myself in people's hands, trust them, especially bullies. I have the right to haggle I thought. Since I posted I've received the contract via email with agreed price as $35,000 so maybe the Agent has passed on my proposal of $34k & they compromised. Its all very risky Business. I'm doing this for my son who arranged to go look at it with REAgent tomorrow, apparently (so REAgent said - my son isn't talking to me 'till "after the weekend" because I replied "whatever" to a hurtful tx message he sent me. I'm just feeling pummeled and have need help. You know, I'm doing this for my son, he can't see it though. I'm sad 😢

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 1:37 pm AEST

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I've just organised changing my phone number, just email people or snail mail. Losing the art of conversation. Tx is so restrictive. I don't wanna talk to anybody. So sick of the BS, especially when I'm giving. Might go sit in the sun a while.

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 1:40 pm AEST

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Hi @Former-Member, I see you there 💐🌻💐🌻💐

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Unknown userMember18 Apr 2020, 1:50 pm AEST

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can't function again today. Fur baby needs a bath and acwalj., The house is a mess, I haven't showered for... (Betta not say), yet playing on my phone here is easier, maybe 'cause its interaction... I donno. The sun beckons me but there's an invisible force shield blocking me. Not logical or rational I know.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor18 Apr 2020, 2:14 pm AEST

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Awww @Former-Member .... that is rough.

I agree with @Former-Member, real estate agents can play games with people and some workers are just rough characters anyway.

Your son is behaving badly, but you know that ..... hopefully he will start to mature soon and not say such horrible things to you. What a sweetheart you are, buying him a block of land ❣️ I agree, he could afford to show a little gratitude and respect, but then sobs often take their male cues from their fathers ..... ubfortunately in your case, and mine.

Hugs incoming ..... 💕💕💕

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