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It's time I disappear

BlueBaySenior Contributor16 June 2018, 3:50 pm AEST

It's time I disappear

I've been struggling for awhile and today is a really bad day. I'm emotional overwhelmed angry at my BPD. Not coping. Im having thoughts to disappear fir a while where no one will find me.

I am so confused in my head.

I am thinking my family will be better off without me. I am a bother to then.

Pls tell me I'm wrong. Someone tell me to not do it.

Ir seems wrong but my head is telling me very strongly to do it.

Easilt psck a bag and go.

Fragile is how I feel.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor28 June 2018, 9:57 pm AEST

Re: It's time I disappear

Now is one time I wish I did what I wrote .....

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outlanderSenior Contributor28 June 2018, 10:03 pm AEST

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@BlueBay
I read your other post as well

Reliving things arent great. Im guessing your psych session didn't go that well today? Did you want to talk about it?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor28 June 2018, 10:06 pm AEST

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@outlander

It's too hard

I'm sorry

tomorrow

I need to run away now

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outlanderSenior Contributor28 June 2018, 10:08 pm AEST

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Aw @BlueBay
Im here for you

Is there something that might ease your distress at all? Are you safe? Would calling a helpline help?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor28 June 2018, 10:11 pm AEST

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I am finding it difficult to put it into words how I feel @outlander

Nit sure if I'm safe though

abd don't care either

I'll hide under my blankets like I did as a child 😥😥

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outlanderSenior Contributor28 June 2018, 10:17 pm AEST

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Y'know @BlueBay laying in bed isnt the worst thing. If that helps you to feel more safe and comfortable thats a great way to cope until you can ease your distress abit.
I usually lay in bed and watch a movie- do you think that might even for a little while or maybe a cup of tea in bed?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor07 July 2018, 8:07 pm AEST

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The thoughts are dark

I’m not coping

nothing else to say right now

I don’t need any replies

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MuzzieSenior Contributor07 July 2018, 9:00 pm AEST

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Are you OK @BlueBay? Have you got someone who you can call on now?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor07 July 2018, 9:03 pm AEST

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@Muzzie

Im not ok.

I don’t really care

home with hubby

don’t worry about me

no one else cares

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MuzzieSenior Contributor07 July 2018, 9:14 pm AEST

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People do care @BlueBay and if you are really struggling. There are people you can call as well and I know that you know all of this. Is that something you need to do now?

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