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It's time I disappear

BlueBaySenior Contributor16 June 2018, 3:50 pm AEST

It's time I disappear

I've been struggling for awhile and today is a really bad day. I'm emotional overwhelmed angry at my BPD. Not coping. Im having thoughts to disappear fir a while where no one will find me.

I am so confused in my head.

I am thinking my family will be better off without me. I am a bother to then.

Pls tell me I'm wrong. Someone tell me to not do it.

Ir seems wrong but my head is telling me very strongly to do it.

Easilt psck a bag and go.

Fragile is how I feel.

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MDTSenior Contributor22 June 2018, 9:56 pm AEST

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@BlueBay I am here to chat if you need to as are others too

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BlueBaySenior Contributor22 June 2018, 9:56 pm AEST

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@MDT

I think I might go to bed. This week has been hell. Emotionally and physically.

Nice chatting. Hope you have a good night.

BB xx

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MDTSenior Contributor22 June 2018, 9:58 pm AEST

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okay @BlueBay take care mate

Sleep well. Sounds like you are simple exhausted. Sleep in tomorrow I think.

Let me know how you are as well.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 9:09 am AEST

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Hi @MDT

I wasn't safe when you msg me. I'm nit bad atm. I'm still emotionsl but safe. My hubby is home with me so I'll be safe. I can't control my emotions I struggle.

Thanks so much for chatting with me last night. I appreciate it.

Do you have a busy day today ?

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MDTSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 11:38 am AEST

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No problem @BlueBay
I'm glad you feel a bit safer atm.
Today is a relatively okay day. I have work this arvo but will going for brunch before hand.
Then maybe meetup tonight but I'm not sure yet. Already had a bad start to the day. I'm not gonna post it here though coz this is your thread.
Hope you have a pleasant day tofay

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 12:01 pm AEST

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@MDT

If it helps you to vent it on here @MDT I really don't mind you posting on here. I'm here to listen and maybe I can help. Pls don't feel you are intruding my post.

BB xx

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 2:01 pm AEST

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Hi @MDT

I'm in a bad headspace at the moment. Should have just packed my bag the other day and disappear. Some days are just too hard to live.

I'm sorry I shouldn't bother you.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 8:30 pm AEST

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Just logged on. Thinking of you @BlueBay

I hope you found a way to settle.

@MDT is great at support!

Gently Bently BB

Apple

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MDTSenior Contributor23 June 2018, 8:41 pm AEST

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No worries @BlueBay
Are you okay atm?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor23 June 2018, 8:45 pm AEST

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@MDT

No ive been a mess but I'm watching tv with hubby. I tagged you in my other post "not feeling good" if you want to look at it.

Thoughts of running away next week snd disappearing fir a while. These thoughts are strong. Need to calm down.

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