Living with Ourselves

Hello lovely @Clawde

supporting others..

you have a good 💜

sending you some support back and warm wishes

talk to us whenever you choose..

you are always welcome 🙏

Sophia

cant find the ☀️ an odd looking one on my phone

night night Clawde xx

Thankyou @Sophia1 Lovely message Have a Great Day from your Clawde

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@Adge wrote:

Hi @Sophia1 I hope you are well.

How are your fingers?

Mine are going blue/white & numb on a regular basis - Cold weather & gripping steering wheel etc.

House Alarm Crisis last week - Fault, Alarm on continuously for over an hour (to start with).

So Callouts & $500 expense for that.

Then Specialist Sleep Dr Appnt.

No Rest for the Wicked (or Good)....

3 Small Aviaries (I have) - Each about 8 feet Long, 6 feet high, 4 feet wide.

Need repairs or replacement (all 3).

3 Large Bird Cages inside.

Yes my Barbary Doves landed on my head, shoulder & arm yesterday (in Aviary) - They were very eager to get to that Egg & Biscuit Mix, that they saw I was holding.

It's for my Canaries & Finches - Many of which will only breed when given Protein supplement, as they are naturally Insectivorous (eat Insects) in the wild.

The Doves don't need any Egg & Biscuit - Yet they've decided that it's "the Best thing since Sliced Bread", so they Scoff the lot....

Many of my established plants (that I planted) have died. I've not planted anything new in many years.

So I just have a few of the hardy Survivors left - Several Grevilleas, Wattles, one Bull Banksia, a Carob tree, several small Euchalypts including a Red-Flowering Gum (Ficifolia), a Pink Flowering Ironbark (leucoxylon)(not small)(10 to 15m), & some lantana montevidensis groundcovers.

Adge

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Hello @Adge

apologies re late reply...

I take so long to reply to posts and spend far too much time sitting...stiffening up..

Your birds sound as though they have you wrapped up within their feathers...

special food for some that others hungrily want but do not need..

all a way of spending time with you...they are alive and welcome your attention...your caring for them..

lovely that you have an interest in birds...

When we went on the houseboat the birdlife fascinated me once again as it always has when out on boat trips...

Such a beautiful escape to watch their escapades and forget our own daily life momentarily...

a holiday!

any time away from everyday life, chores. routine. home can be a holiday of sorts though..

a day trip ...an afternoon out...

Grevilleas and lantana I know well..

a carob tree ...intriguing...

my fingers have been misbehaving and were part of a discussion at lunch on sunday with family member's father...

My fingers and feet were numb...I was frozen...inside with woollen jumper on ...boots...knitted fingerless mittens multicoloured...

I burst a blood vessel again the other day...they seem to be more reactive and last longer with swelling...stops me using that hand for a couple of days...

I was picking up bluestone rocks ...who knows why it happened...

Spring is here now and we have had an extremely insistent large magpie stealing the straw from my hanging baskets ...I can see him land through my kitchen window...

I race outside and previously he stared at me straight in the eye not moving...

since waving a stick at him and shooing him he has taken notice...

he actually arrived when granddaughter was visiting with her baby boy whilst we were sitting outside..

She asked if we were feeding him..she thought that he was friendly....he was sizing me up I think...

my reply no ...he is stealing our straw

he must have the best state of the art nest in the state given the amount that he has taken..

Can be replaced...

Hope to see you on the thread with some of that humour of yours...

Sophia 💛

Hello @Jacques

Hoping that all is well in your world...

Do you think that spring might entice you outside more?

It is working with me..

I have some news for you...

post when you can

hugs from Sophia💛

@Sophia1 love to you dear Sophia ☀️💛

hi @Sophia1

oh im so sorry yuou had a bad day the other day, i hope your mood has improved some what. depression is a rough friend, and it does come at odd times, it can be so hard some times. don't let it get to you @Sophia1 you are a beautiful person.

it is so easy to isolate and not talk to anyone, i have done it for so long now it is all i know, it still stunns me i have been isolating for 20 years now, it does not seem so long. it is sad when i think about it, all i have missed. what could have been.

i hope you managed your walk. oh you have snap dragons, that is awesome, they are so so beautiful. i got out yesterday and got some fresh air and did some work in my shed.

yes, i htink warming up will help me geto out, i need to, im starting to slip into not wanting to leave the house. im sleeping a lot through the day now. which worries me.

hey what is the news? keen to hear

hugs

Jacques

Hello lovely @Anastasia

Our paths have not met for a while...

busy lives on and off of the forums...

You are remembered without question..

💛

Hello dear friend @Clawde

Thank you for your presence and respecting my posts...

I hope that you have some wonderful thoughts that come to you out of the blue..

A gift of compassion from across virtuality to reality..

without actually meeting..

Sophia 💛

Dear @Jacques

Lovely to hear from you as always my dear friend..

In your previous post you mentioned the difficulties that you endure when away from home and wearing your mask..

You are a responsible member of your community who is also not only looking after your home town, your state and equally your country..

How rude, ignorant and self centred for someone to shout at you for wearing a mask..

I am fuming just writing in response...

I wanted to share my news with you that I finally made it out to the park across the road..which is such a narrow road as well. The park appears to be an extension of our garden when standing in the higher area..

So for others reading they probably will not understand the challenge for me..

It would have to be at least 3 months since I have had the courage to go across there..

Before then was random times..

Before random times I walked through there at least 5 times a week for up to one to two hours meandering through our town via the course of the local river..

This river runs through our park and is also opposite our house...

They have created a rock bed and wetland area with a wooden bridge crossing over..

The birdlife...kookaburras along with many others..

Often after rains frogs croaking away so loudly....I love it...

I think that it takes me back to when I was young and often walked alone through nature.. in various countries..

Also we lived in large old adjoined cottages on a family farm...a long private road leading from the large manor farmhouse ...courtyard area for pigs...farming equipment...sheds for hay...

many wonderful memories of climbing very high haystacks up ladders....hide and seek...with cousins..

burning along on a tricycle down the private road to the farm..in my absolute element...as my mind roamed freely playing out all sorts of scenarios...it was a child's playground..

there is not much that I remember in growing up...the odd memories are always around a time living close to nature.

I walked for nearly two hours yesterday...

I ended up at the library in between....

I had forgotten to take a mask as I was so focussed on getting across our road to the park...

I went inside and bravely asked if they had a spare disposable one explaining that I had not been out for a while and was focussing only on walking..I had completely forgotten about mask wearing..

At first the answer was not...then because I just stood there...frozen to the floor I think...she directed me over to another staff member.

I was asked what I wanted to use the library for and answered only to borrow some books..

She assessed me and this voice from within burst out with..

"I have not been able to leave my house for three months to go for a walk. ..This was my goal to achieve today..Normallly I am extremely careful of following all requirements for current restrictions as it means so much to me to keep our nation safe along with all who live here..

(I would love to be able to save the world but now know better and remind myself often.)

I think that she sensed something in my voice or perhaps my eyes were pleading...she said that they had a couple spare from those put aside for volunteers who were forgetting to use them..

I got to the computerised machine for scanning books...New machine of course..

It took some time ...I eventually worked it out with where the card actually is scanned..

I waved and thanked both ladies on my way out wearing my mask so they would not have heard...They would have seen the smile in my eyes though..

I felt so strange walking through that park....It was not a degeneralised feeling as such....More a feeling of oh my goodness I have not seen this for so long from this angle...It appeared as 3D..

I also felt the same that you mentioned...how sad so much time wasted ...

It is a very underrated condition....experience..

I wanted to share with you as you have been so supportive my friend and I know that you are one person who truly understands..

My wish is that this will give you some hope ....it is never too late..

I am not cured....I have made the first move ....I have started...

You mentioned that you are slipping back into not wanting to leave the house...

Do you think that is the after effect of your experiences with selfish people not doing the right thing and also verbally abusing you..

Sleeping during the day....are you not sleeping at night....changed your body clock perhaps..

I do not sleep well...I do not allow myself to sleep through the day...It gives me a headache and drains my energy..

Lethargy sets in along with an opening of a door for negative thinking in my situation..

Is depression lurking? Those symptoms would be a warning for me with my experience of depression..

We all have our own varying symptoms..

You are more than welcome to talk about the lack of energy or anything that you want ...

talking in itself might be enough to start you thinking about what is helpful for you...

You are very important to me ...I want you to know that I support you as much as I am able to..given the virtual world and time restraints as well as self care for both of us..

Hope to hear from you when you are able to..

sending you hugs and love as a dear friend..

💛 Sophia

Thank you @Sophia1 I appreciate you 💛

Father's Day has brought a tornedo of a downward spiral for my boy. Covid has so much to answer for. Today is a day I hope to be over soon. Hope you are ok?

I always have you in my thoughts 💐