Living with Ourselves

@Sophia1

@Sophia1

So much pain @Sophia1 , I am sorry, hugs and love although it's really not enough I hope it helps a little 💕🤗

I have decided to delete my last post.

I wrote it in my journalling style, way over here.

I added a warning.

I now feel that it is best not left here.

Those who read this, letting you know so that I don't confuse you.

It is just moi removing my debris.

@Sophia1 💞

A quick hello to all passing

Apologies for not being in touch

I hope that I have not hurt anyone's feelings

Will try to respond later.

Take care 💚

I am so very very sorry @Anastasia @Emelia8

I am finding it very hard to navigate the forums these days.

I log on and my mind takes me to the latest subject on a particular thread.

Sometimes people whom I have not interacted with before.

Then as I spend a long time checking what I have written aside from thinking about the content before, I find myself drained or running out of time spent on the computer, sitting, stiffening.

On logging out I suddenly remember that I have not even replied to those who have supported my comments or responded.

This again seems to mirror real life.

All of my energy is spent in day to day existing. Little sleep if any.

I have therapy and have even asked the question is it working.

Then I look at all that has happened in such a short period of time on top of previous mounds of trauma building up.

Why do I constantly expect myself to have "super powers"

If I did would they actually resolve all of the issues in my life?

Fast forward my therapy recovery?

Is it my therapist's fault that life is just too hard at the moment with further life events?

I think that thinking sometimes should be banned!!

It's ok @Sophia1

we understand and I just want you to know there are no expectations around responding or being in a particular place. Here on your thread is fine when you can...keep taking care of YOU.

Love and hugs always xox

Thank you this is my third attempt to write something @Anastasia

I am not in a good way at the moment and my replies are too dark.

take care as I know you are also going through a difficult time at the moment.

He is still there, on a different journey at present.

He knows that you love and support him alwlays.

@outlander @Adge @TAB @Emelia8 @Exoplanet thinking of you all and thanking you

@Historylover @AussieRecharger @saltandpepper

I want to reply just not in a good space at the moment.

I will search for your posts when have a clearer head.

@soppykat

hope that you are managing.

there is a talk on tuesday night about working and mental health, 8th June.

I thought of you.

@Former-Member could you please direct soppykat if she so wishes to the upcoming talk.

Thank you.

💛💚💜