Living with Ourselves

To everyone else who has tagged me elsewhere...I thank you sincerely,...

I am not able to spread my wings at the moment..

I think they must be a bit wonky and twisted...along with the rest of the body and mind...

I do very much appreciate you thinking of me...

For now I send you all warmth...invisible support....arms open wide .....

I am feeling your presence

💛💜💚❤🙀

No worries @eudemonism

I could see you were out on an edge over a year ago whatever when you had started your "reality" thread. I just liked your tag name. I am socially drawn to people with serious mental health issues.

Sometimes, its I feel familiar with similar issues. Sometimes I feel sorry or pity. Sometimes I am pushed away. It is what it is. I try and relate to all comers too, but most "normals" lack the depth when dealing with the stuff that has come my way. I guess as I age I can put into perspective the times I visited dad at the psych ward. I probably relate more to Aspie myself ...

Its just good to see you perservere with this site and dog and all your creative photography and stuff.

My dad may have lasted but he was over medicated and died of heart attack at 45 in the ward ... hmmmm .... and then there are the coroners systems ... Last week someone was suggesting I submit to the Royal Commission in Mental Illness. I said I was overwhelmed and already submitted to 2 enquiries.

Maybe you can put your case to the commission. Its on atm. Google it. Apparently they were shocked by the actual suicide rate after hospital presentations ... yeah the bodies showing up at the morgue says a lot ...

I can get pretty dark ... not all Pollyanna-ish.

Its a bigger issue than me or my family or you. Hope you are alright.

Cheers

Yea i could only imagine @Appleblossom just then i was thinking. I'll sue the mental health system for 5 million dollars because of what they've done to me.

In particular dealing with all the medication side effects. I was better off smoking dope.

Royal commissions in mental health??? Is that it's exact name???

Yea I'm not as over the edge these days. Because I've realised society can't really deal me any harsher sentence then what I've been given. Hence I've accepted it

Not politically correct but I know what ya mean about dope. @eudemonism So many double standards.

Personally I am being "a good girl" and taking my neuroleptics and modelling appropriate use of services and meds for my son, but totally pissed that I was made to suffer so much by doctors for 2 decades for having Hep B&C. I was a slow learner in my teens and it shows in my blodds and I am a good girl and tell them but somehow that meant I was not entitled to basic respect and appropriate medical services. Talk about stigma. Eventually a doctor realised I could not have the quals and other history without being a decent person with discipline and ethics and he apologised for previous doctors. Where is the bloody sense in giving it up in 1982 if I was not allowed to benefit. They are bloody lucky I am still here and that is in doubt sometimes.

Just googled Royal Comm.... its Andrews govt Victorian ... not sure if thats your area.

The lack of being treated like a whole person is a real problem. @eudemonism

Nobody wants to be a bottom line or benchmark.

I gained some sense of empowerment by turning that kind of language back on them but on MY terms. I can tell my story in personal terms but also in general work-talk terms. Challenged them to trace the numbers of suicides as a KPI.

Apparently they did and were shocked and hence the Royal Commission.

Recently I mentioned not to underestimate the intelligence and education of the community of people struggling with mental health. We are no longer so isolated even if the internet is the main area of social contact. Posting on here over the years as helped me gradually get up to date and out of my own skin re the issues. Learning not to personalise everything is hard. I am not great at it yet. .. but getting out of one's skin can be adaptive aspect of dissociation.