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Niquas Notes

Niquas Notes

I thought I might try some 'journalling' . Just write a little blurb out each day, basically what I'm already doing . . . just giving it a name . . a title, I suppose? But to give it some 'umph' in my head I'm going to try & remember how to start a new thread & call it 'Niquas Notes' 🙂
It's not even 11.30am & I'm having a tomatoe & onion sandwich for lunch 🙂 I think I've been forgetting to 'get around' to a few meals lately. It's pretty good 🙂
I think I need to go into town today & check the post office, I may have a parcel to collect (evil ebay again!). I might get some meat while I'm in there (probably sausages ;)), I don't think I've had a lot of it lately - though I had Tuna in some fried rice the other night 🙂 Pretty sure I've got a couple of DVDs to collect from the library too 😉 {which means waiting until after 2pm at least as they close from 1-2pm for lunch} Today being Wednesday, it's an off-lead walk day, so I'll take the puppies along & drop into the local Forest on the way back home 🙂 I really enjoy that walk myself, it might be one I've done a million times, but that's sort of part of what I think I really enjoy about it?;)? & of the camp trips, beach walks & places that I have been going to for a little while now - the local 'home' forest walk still gives us the most freedom & me the most confidence 🙂
I think I am recovering from the xmas kerfuffle. I've just polished off a banana, which I would normally have at breakfast, so I've just combined morning & midday meals 😉 & I've got a bottle of water with just a touch of Apple Cider vinegar in it :x I actually quiet like the tang & I do beleive my insides appreciate it 🙂 I've been having quite a few nasty waves of nausea washing over me for a while now.
I need to start 'beating myself up a bit' about the housework! I did get some dishes done before I went away, but there's still a mountain of pots and pans there!! & my mountains of dirty washing are growing death defying peaks!!! I did also get 1/2 the yard mowed, but the other half is overgrown & the 1st 1/2 could do with a trim (00)! & the general clutter continues to compact.
I must look online at what the costs of registering my puppies will be in my council, maybe I can do that while I'm in town? If I got the genny going & started tackling the dirty washing, I could mow my little fella's feet inbetween cycles . . . & then we could go to a favourite 'look-out' spot for a walk 😛 . . . that'd be nice 🙂
Well, by the time I get online, it'll be past Potatoe hour. So I'd better stop blurbing & post 😉
Love to all that need or want it, everything positive gratefully accepted 🙂
❤️

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I'm gonna watch some movies now Claire Hope your Ok @outlander

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sounds good @Former-Member make sure you take care of yourself too, shower, eat, drink, , walks, sleep, rest

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Hi Niqua, just got home from a long day out not long ago. Someone else suggested holding off on sending a letter for a bit longer if you can, to let things settle a bit more. I support that idea. There are a lot of considerations, including your child's chaotic and probably overwhelming life. Strongly support the idea that you not mention possible mental illness or mental health problems in them at this stage. I think it may be hard to convince them to seek help when you are not doing that for you. Or maybe I've got that wrong and you are going to seek help, or maybe it's family therapy you are thinking of. Sorry, I am very tired as I'm writing this. In any of those cases, I just have a hunch it might be a bit of a left field and troubling suggestion to your child at this stage. I would take it all slower, though I know that's hard to do. These suggestions may not be great, or even make complete sense. Just going on gut instinct and writing that out to you. Love from, Mazy @Former-Member

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Love you Mazy @Mazarita

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@Former-Member ...

I am glad you didn't send the letters.

I have written many letters, angry or accusatory, in my time. I have only ever actually sent one of them, and all it did was to break something beautiful...

In time, gentle loving support can heal even the worst wounds, and calm words can be a compass that helps lost wanderers find a path again...

This guilt of yours... I know it's damn hard, but it's gotta go. It gets in the way of everything, these self-made chains from our past...

Much love to you, Niqueeta...

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I went to the next town over, I made a doctors appointment, it's for monday.

I bought a new laptop, it's a HP

I have to try & help myself in the hope I can help my daughter help her children

I don't want to, I have to

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I think I should write what to say to the doctor

What do I say, if I'm not to talk of guilt or mantal health, just the facts

I was an alcohol & substance abuser, I still abuse substance on occasions

I think I taught my daughter a unhealthy lifestyle

I think my daughter is teaching her children the same

I need help, I don't know what to do.

I think I was trigger by finding out my daughters eldest made alligations of rape & nothing happened

I was raped as a child & nothing happened, I can't let that history repeat

What can I do?

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@Silenus @Mazarita @outlander @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Former-Member

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Hey @Former-Member,

It sounds like you have achieved some really amazing things - like setting up the doctors appointment and getting the laptop. I know you have some great supports in this forum as well. It can be hard to make sense of what we want to say to mental health professionals and thinking of a few things you want to share is a good idea.

If you want some one on one support with this you can contact our helpcentre here

Keep reaching out.

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