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Niquas Notes

Niquas Notes

I thought I might try some 'journalling' . Just write a little blurb out each day, basically what I'm already doing . . . just giving it a name . . a title, I suppose? But to give it some 'umph' in my head I'm going to try & remember how to start a new thread & call it 'Niquas Notes' 🙂
It's not even 11.30am & I'm having a tomatoe & onion sandwich for lunch 🙂 I think I've been forgetting to 'get around' to a few meals lately. It's pretty good 🙂
I think I need to go into town today & check the post office, I may have a parcel to collect (evil ebay again!). I might get some meat while I'm in there (probably sausages ;)), I don't think I've had a lot of it lately - though I had Tuna in some fried rice the other night 🙂 Pretty sure I've got a couple of DVDs to collect from the library too 😉 {which means waiting until after 2pm at least as they close from 1-2pm for lunch} Today being Wednesday, it's an off-lead walk day, so I'll take the puppies along & drop into the local Forest on the way back home 🙂 I really enjoy that walk myself, it might be one I've done a million times, but that's sort of part of what I think I really enjoy about it?;)? & of the camp trips, beach walks & places that I have been going to for a little while now - the local 'home' forest walk still gives us the most freedom & me the most confidence 🙂
I think I am recovering from the xmas kerfuffle. I've just polished off a banana, which I would normally have at breakfast, so I've just combined morning & midday meals 😉 & I've got a bottle of water with just a touch of Apple Cider vinegar in it :x I actually quiet like the tang & I do beleive my insides appreciate it 🙂 I've been having quite a few nasty waves of nausea washing over me for a while now.
I need to start 'beating myself up a bit' about the housework! I did get some dishes done before I went away, but there's still a mountain of pots and pans there!! & my mountains of dirty washing are growing death defying peaks!!! I did also get 1/2 the yard mowed, but the other half is overgrown & the 1st 1/2 could do with a trim (00)! & the general clutter continues to compact.
I must look online at what the costs of registering my puppies will be in my council, maybe I can do that while I'm in town? If I got the genny going & started tackling the dirty washing, I could mow my little fella's feet inbetween cycles . . . & then we could go to a favourite 'look-out' spot for a walk 😛 . . . that'd be nice 🙂
Well, by the time I get online, it'll be past Potatoe hour. So I'd better stop blurbing & post 😉
Love to all that need or want it, everything positive gratefully accepted 🙂
❤️

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Hi @Former-Member

Just popping in with a warm hello. I have just read your posts now and really feel for you. My daughter can take advantage of us financially at times (not pay rent then blow her money on things she does not need etc). I had to put my foot down. But it's a never ending battle at times. I refuse to give her money now. I hope there is a way you can sort the loan situation out - it's not right that you are losing your life savings 😥

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I feel like I've had a huge argument with my child, & yet all I've said is what I put in previous posts? I recieved a text this afternoon, telling me some money had been put into my account & would go in every fortnight. I returned a 3 word message 'Thank you Child' {I didn't say child}. No phone call. I feel like if I am to be loved by my child I have to agree with everything they say & do - the fact is I don't. I don't agree with 4 terminations & the have this 1, not that 1, way in which they occured. I can understand 1, but not 4. I don't agree that it is in any way loving or respectful that my child had never visited me since they left home 15 or so years ago. I don't agree that it shows they love or want me that when I visit there has never been anywhere for me to sleep, & that even when I got my ute, mattress & critter cages together, so I could provide my own sleeping space - the 'spot' where I park is never empty for me to park in. I think I have had enough, I think this could just destroy me.

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Hugs and hugs @Former-Member .....

Here and listening .....

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hearing you @Former-Member

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I want everyone to know I won't be left with nothing, I receive a pension, I almost feel guitly to admit I receive the disability pension for my neuro-biological disorders, so many people here are struggling so hard to recieve it. I'm an offical looney, I really can't hide it anymore. I've been embarrassing myself around here lately, I pulled into the local servo yesterday, I didn't realize how louding I was shouting, I'm embarrassed to admit I was swearing, it was so loud a man sitting at a table & chairs noticed as I pulled in, he looked at me like I was looney - because I am.

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Your not a looney @Former-Member not to me NN . Mh is a real thing and no shame in recieiving a pension for it either. 💕

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Still listening @Former-Member ....

I hope you waved at him. Not trying to be facetious .... you can have neuro-biological disorders worthy of a disability pension, and be a beautiful person who some are honoured to know .... you know .... ❣️

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@Former-Member no shame in taking help if you need it 🙂

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Niqua 💛

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@Former-Member im quite concerned about you. So i want to ask if you are safe? I am glad your finally opening up and can imagine how your feeling about now. What your going through isnt easy. For those who dont know you or your story its easy to judge. Us humans are good at that even before we read the pages. I know alot of your story. The parts youve shared on here and things youve shared with me ive told you a few times i love u just for who you are that includes all neuro-biological disorders. Im not judging you for being on a pension ( if it helps u to know i am on one too and feel embarrassed do understand that part too) for being angry or upset. And there are many people who are on various payments not just on here but those offline too as they are struggling for mh issues. Your not the first or thr last person who will need this soet of support. I would rather you share it and get it out of your system rather than squashing it down. I dont plan on leaving you either, if i didn't want to respond then i wouldnt so you can count me in for any challanges you face. I care very much for you.
I also know your missing your good friend Mazy too but i am sure she is thinking of you too. Tour special to her as well and have a lovely bond that i dont think will break.

I hope that in time that debt in your name clears and your relarionship with your child and family improves. Maybe if its not to hot tomorrow tou could take your critters to rhe beach or on a walk to help release some of those emotions you have.
We are all in this together. Please know you have me and all these wonderful members here supporting you even though you feel alone
Love and hugs from
Claire
NN 🌻🌻💛💛🌺🌺
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