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Niquas Notes

Niquas Notes

I thought I might try some 'journalling' . Just write a little blurb out each day, basically what I'm already doing . . . just giving it a name . . a title, I suppose? But to give it some 'umph' in my head I'm going to try & remember how to start a new thread & call it 'Niquas Notes' 🙂
It's not even 11.30am & I'm having a tomatoe & onion sandwich for lunch 🙂 I think I've been forgetting to 'get around' to a few meals lately. It's pretty good 🙂
I think I need to go into town today & check the post office, I may have a parcel to collect (evil ebay again!). I might get some meat while I'm in there (probably sausages ;)), I don't think I've had a lot of it lately - though I had Tuna in some fried rice the other night 🙂 Pretty sure I've got a couple of DVDs to collect from the library too 😉 {which means waiting until after 2pm at least as they close from 1-2pm for lunch} Today being Wednesday, it's an off-lead walk day, so I'll take the puppies along & drop into the local Forest on the way back home 🙂 I really enjoy that walk myself, it might be one I've done a million times, but that's sort of part of what I think I really enjoy about it?;)? & of the camp trips, beach walks & places that I have been going to for a little while now - the local 'home' forest walk still gives us the most freedom & me the most confidence 🙂
I think I am recovering from the xmas kerfuffle. I've just polished off a banana, which I would normally have at breakfast, so I've just combined morning & midday meals 😉 & I've got a bottle of water with just a touch of Apple Cider vinegar in it :x I actually quiet like the tang & I do beleive my insides appreciate it 🙂 I've been having quite a few nasty waves of nausea washing over me for a while now.
I need to start 'beating myself up a bit' about the housework! I did get some dishes done before I went away, but there's still a mountain of pots and pans there!! & my mountains of dirty washing are growing death defying peaks!!! I did also get 1/2 the yard mowed, but the other half is overgrown & the 1st 1/2 could do with a trim (00)! & the general clutter continues to compact.
I must look online at what the costs of registering my puppies will be in my council, maybe I can do that while I'm in town? If I got the genny going & started tackling the dirty washing, I could mow my little fella's feet inbetween cycles . . . & then we could go to a favourite 'look-out' spot for a walk 😛 . . . that'd be nice 🙂
Well, by the time I get online, it'll be past Potatoe hour. So I'd better stop blurbing & post 😉
Love to all that need or want it, everything positive gratefully accepted 🙂
❤️

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I don't seem to be able to get myself up from this down. My child rang today, I know when they ring through the day that they want money. I'm sick of giving them money. They openly admit how they waste it, like admitting it makes it better!?! This time it was on rum. I'm pretty aware of the $22000 debt they have to pay, considering the only way they could get into that debt was for me to put my name on it with them. They choose to be with a partner that would prefer to wait years for their debts to 'go away' then to pay them & be able to provide for their family. I can't stop this anger building for my child. The only person in my life. Is it neuro-biological malfunctions or have I really just had enough. They choose to allow their eldest to upset me & do nothing about it - it still upsets me. I actually said something, somthing like 'you might have to start looking at your finances better?' - they responded with 'we're usually alright, we had to get a laptop for 1 of the kids - I dared to say, 'your not usually alright, my bank account is proof your not usually alright', I ended the call quickly after that, having already transfer the money they asked for. Doubt I'll get a call tonight, truth is - I don't really want it.

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no Niqua i would be pretty upset and mad too @Former-Member good on your for sticking up for yourself abit, hoping they 'wake' up abit to the things youve done for them.

hugs

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@Former-Member

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Looking forward to seeing the pics Claire

I read to got desperate & took your sleep medication. Did it go alright, I mean with the dreams - did you manage some rest?

@outlander

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i hope you like them Niqua

not really suppose to take them since ive gone off them but they wont k-ill me. i got a few hrs. really struggling atm and just got declinced by a helpline. dreams had one or 2 but not as intense as usual-shows how tired my entire body is suppose. @Former-Member

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I didn't get a phone call from my child last night. It would have been way to awkward & I have too much anger. I don't know what I'm going to do about this. I feel cheated. I feel, like a solid ball sitting just under my chest. I still know my child is not going to pay the loan. My money is locked up in an investment, I think I went about it wrong - I took it for 5 years. As the payments start not getting made, the fees will accumulate. I had to lock my money up to get the loan for my child - I won't be able to do anything about the fees. My name is on that loan. I will never again be able to earn money. What I had was it. It is nearly gone.

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Oh @Former-Member ..... that is so unfair !!

Can you seek free legal advice and see whether there are compassion grounds to make a change to that loan ? Please don’t be shy about mentioning menta health issues ...... this is not an even playing field and you need to look after you and your mental health first and foremost.

My life hasn’t been on an even playing field, and I do myself a disservice if I don’t mention my D2’s disability ..... and once my familiy’s mi issues are documented, then Inown them too ..... we are all in this together ......

You need to take what ver action you need to to make sure you are looked after Hon ...... you matter ..... you count too ......

💜💐💕

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Oh niqua that is just sht
I agree with f&h maybe seek some legal advice on what to do.
You can't live on nothing and its not fair or right that your childs done that. Are you able to get the car loan (im sure you said it was fora car) changed to their name? Like if you were to sell a car change the details then it becomes that person's problem im sure you can do that. The debt really isnt yours to own....

Love and hugs, sitting with you @Former-Member 💛💛

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* it must be really hard and frustrating for you esp since its your child so i cant fully understand what your going through or what your best options might be...
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