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life is too hard

catgirlSenior Contributor13 Jan 2018, 5:55 pm AEDT

life is too hard

Hi..i am not coping..i dont think anyone can help me..i have been having suicidal thoughts for a long time and have had a couple of unsuccesful attempts..i see a phsyciatrist, phsycologist,am currently doing DBT,and have been hospitalised 3 times in the past year...none of which is helping..the only positive thing i have in my life is my cat..but even he hasnt stopped the dark thoughts...i do have the means with which to end it all..its just a matter of when...i have read some of the other posts and can relate to most of them...i just want to be happy but every day is just so hard...my brain is moosh...im not eating or sleeping properly...which is making me feel worse...i guess thats enough for now...thanks for reading this post..😿

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catgirlSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 1:49 am AEDT

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@whitedog ..Yep he is my rock...he has a heart murmur so i worry about him..dont want to lose him...it would be the end of me ... i feel such grief when i feel i cant look after him because of my mental state...oh well im just going to enjoy his company tonight and see what tomorrow brings 😻

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whitedogSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 1:54 am AEDT

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@catgirl that's a good idea for the rest of the night.

You could even give him a special treat like some canned food even? 😻

I'm currently checking out some of the videos for week 1 of the course. It seem okay so far. 🙂

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catgirlSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 3:35 pm AEDT

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Woke up today feeling ok but just had something bad happen and went into full blown panic anxiety attack...not coping...hate feeling lile this 😢

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MazaritaSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 3:45 pm AEDT

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Hi @catgirl, do you have some relaxation strategies after having a panic attack? I often help myself with anxiety with breathing meditation. Just simple sitting in a chair and focussing on the breath. Then breathing in on a count of four and out on a count of five. Doesn't cure everything but usually helps me feel a bit better at the least.

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catgirlSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 4:03 pm AEDT

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Hi @Mazarita ...have tried doing mindfulness ...am just way too upset and scared ..dont want to go to hospital and the very thought of it is making me panic more ..on top of everything else thats happened in the past week and today my only family member is playing mind games...she doesnt get that im unwell and cant cope with it...im getting to the point where i will shut down and not be able to speak 😣

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MazaritaSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 4:11 pm AEDT

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@catgirl, I get that about not being able to do the mindfulness when too upset. I'm the same sometimes. I hope you don't shut down. I hope that at least you will be able to speak here, even if not verbalising out loud. Feel free to rave on and even vent if you need to.

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Unknown userMember14 Jan 2018, 4:23 pm AEDT

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hello @catgirl @Mazarita

mind games are awful .....they become worse in our own mind...because our own mind adds to the game..

is that what happens to you?

I am wondering if loud music helps to distract your anxiety ...it works for me....I dance around the house music blaring....physical energy invigorates and distracts me...I smile because I love it...so I get happy hormones..

probably all sounds too hard for you at moment..

mazarita has been there for you which is comforting isn't it...helps us feel worthy...noticed....valued...

plus you have been helping her at the same time that is why she is on here too...

same as me...I came on just now and found this thread..

headphones are good for distracting too but music not too loud to hurt your eardrums..

what would you suggest to me to try?

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whitedogSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 4:28 pm AEDT

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@catgirl Yep sometimes it can only take one thing like that to change the day.

I'm not having a very nice day myself and am going to try going for a run. I find that sometimes a run outside can change my day around for the better.

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catgirlSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 6:40 pm AEDT

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@Mazarita @Former-Member @whitedog ...i posted replies to you all but it was deleted...i think i must have overshared 😯 anyway thanks for your posts i really appreciate it
catgirl

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whitedogSenior Contributor14 Jan 2018, 7:08 pm AEDT

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@catgirl yeah the run went well.:) I feel much better now. I think it's a combination of getting out of the house and getting the endorphins moving that makes it work for me.

yeah that's odd... I wonder where the post went??

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