life is too hard

@catgirl

Don't worry about losing responses on here....I have managed to send oodles and oodles into cyberspace..

I have two cats both very different from each other...both demanding at times then without warning can just turn their backs away..very aloof

they definitely have their own personalities don't they..

you are more than welcome cat girl...you response has helped me in return...nice to feel valued..

Hi @catgirl, if your post was moderated, you should get an email from the moderator to explain why, and to give you the opportunity to edit the post. Hopefully this will happen soon.

Hi @catgirl,

As @Mazarita has said, I've emailed asking you make one minor adjustment to your post before we get it to go live. Please continue sharing your story and experience on the forums, it's already been so valued.

-Flipper

@catgirl, there's a saying that goes around the forum sometimes: 'normal' is a cycle on a washing machine. In other words, it's not something that really fits humans. Most people are weird in one way or another and often the 'happy and functional' image of people hides problems, stresses and imbalances that they just happen to be good at hiding. Our lives immersed in media often fosters impossible ideals of normality. In any case, non-normal lives are more the rule on this forum. So in a way, you are at least normal here! But I get how hard it is for you at the moment and that it's not just 'normality' you want, but not to be so troubled. In relation to shutting down, maybe if you keep writing here it might help keep your communication channels open, keep you expressing what's going on, and avert the worst. I hope so anyway. Wishing you well. Hugs on offer if you want them.

I get it about paranoia with other people too, @catgirl. I was extremely shy and withdrawn as a child and have had lifelong problems with social anxiety. Even in my long major manic period when I ran around making friends with anyone I met, I really was bubbling with anxiety about it inside of myself most of the time. I've become somewhat adept at masking my own nervousness around other people, but this can be rather exhausting. But I also do believe more strongly now that most people aren't thinking about me when I'm out and about. Most people are thinking about themselves, in fact, lol. Doesn't fix things completely but if I just keep reminding myself of that, it helps. Sending strength for tomorrow, that you can get out to your therapy session. It may help with how you are feeling at the moment, so probably worthwhile making the extra push to get there if you can.

Way to go, @catgirl, that's the attitude. I'm going to go offline for a while now. Feel free to drop in on any other discussions around the forum you find of interest or you relate to. Might be back a bit later tonight. Ciao for now and more hugs. 🙂