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💙🦕 @Former-Member ......
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You've got this @Former-Member, take it slowly and try to speak what you can, when you can. It's in your control. Hope you have a good session and a peaceful night sleep tonight.
Take care 🙂
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SleepyPandaSenior Contributor
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I'm thinking that you look for fact sheets to learn about the problem and in the forums discussing SH methods is very triggering because it is a conversation and is more emotional. Not sure if I am explaining that clearly.
SP
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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor
Good morning @Former-Member,
It sounds like starting out by telling your therapist how super scared you are is an awesome idea. It's ok to be scared, even though it feels so yuck. I will be thinking of you today 5-HT. 
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I ended up chickening out.
I talked instead about moving out and getting a job and issues I have with my brother and mother.
The problem is what we talked about hasn't reduced my urges to SH it's actually increased them. If we hadn't of run out of time, I think the next words out of my mouth would have been asking why my brother and mother hate me so much? Which I guess is half-way to what I need to bring up.
The thing is I've told him that I'm a bad person, I'm sure I have sent him an email about it mid last year. But I can't find any evidence of it in my outbox/sent items folder. I don't know if I'm imagining it or if I've forgotten it like I forget everything else.
I don't understand why I can never remember anything. I would say 50% of the conversations I have I forget I've even had them.
And I need to know why people hate me so much. I don't understand what I've done to have someone hate me to such an extent.
I just want to SH, and SH, and SH and then go to bed and not wake up.
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Hi @Former-Member - it sounding like you were already feeling pretty low and now you feel you "chickened out" of bringing up some pretty honest and raw stuff today.
You've been searching for a record of that email you're sure you sent to him, how do you feel about doing that again and if that could be a topic for next time?
I know that the urges are strong, but it's so good to reach out for support here. I'll also check in with an email
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