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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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I don't think I'm prepared to see another mental health professional for therapy, let alone anything else.
I'm on a 3 month mental health ban - no meds, no psychiatrists, no gps and I don't think I'll ever do a therapist again. It took everything I had to go to one in the first place. I'm not prepared to do that again.
And it's been 10 years since I've been involved in the mental health system and I'm not too sure it's made a difference at all - Their 'help' might have made no difference at all and I might never need their 'help' again.
And whilst I'm aware it looks like I have severe anger issues - I actually rarely express anger in real life. So that's not somehting I have to worry about with work or friends in my real life. (Although I do have one email account filled to the brim with angry emails sent to myself).
I think at this stage, I just might have to accept that this is what my life is. And make the most of what I've got. Maybe more than this was never even possible? Maybe I never even deserved better?
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BTW Thank you for talking to me @Faith-and-Hope,
I know I'm being difficult right now.
I'm just so hurt and angry. And I really need someone to talk to.
I wish and hope that I turn up on Tuesday and I have it all wrong, and he somehow makes it okay.
But I severely doubt that's going to happen.
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No, I can become an angry person - it's just that I know how not to express it. I choose to do so sometimes becuse it dissaptes quicker if I do.
I just don't express it at work or around my friends.
I express it a lot on here cause I need to vent.
No, I don't keep a mood journal, but I've just started to keep a journal/dairy.
I know what causes me to disociate. Feeling intense emotions. Mainly when I feel threatened, or vulnerable or hurt...... and angry.
But according to my therapist - I don't dissociate, I'm just attention seeking.
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Wow .... if that’s what he has said, then yep, I would be changing therapists ..... grrrr ....
That doesn’t make sense at all in relation to what you have been saying. An attention-seeking person would be expressing anger and whatever else got them attention around their friends, work colleagues, at uni ..... everywhere. Instead, you have strategies to keep yourself from that sort of attention .....
Wow.
I have just started a gratitude journal. I am trying to focus on what is positive about our shift, and I figure writing it down is going to make me think about it, and concentrate on it, instead of everything and everyone I have had to leave behind. I will draw and glue images into it as well. Colours stay with me, so that will hopefully bring the images to mind when I am struggling.
The last time I did something like this was in high school ..... and I’m a dinosaur .... lol ....
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To clarify - he didn't specifically state that I was attention seeking. He just made a really, really big deal about how I zone out in every appointment, said in a really negative way. But he didn't address the zoning out or how I feel when it happens or how I could stop myself. He just made a really big deal about how I did it each and every appointment. And he watched this happen for a year not giving a shit about it.
I like any normal person likes a little bit of attention - but angry pants 5-HT is not good attention. But on the same hand, angry pants 5-HT holds onto it if it's not addressed, solved or validated.
Just you wait until 5-HT learns a new skill or finishes a crafty project - there WILL be clamoring for attention then.
With my new diary I plan to keep an eye on how much effective study i do, and exercise as well. And just generally my mood, anxiety, sleep etc. More for me to be able to remember it, than to track it if that makes sense.
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It makes perfect sense @Former-Member .... a sensible approach to keeping on track, for sure .....
No surprise you were zoning out in each appointment if it was really stressful for you, and he left you feeling upset about that by commenting on it but not supporting you ..... that’s not great.
I think it’s natural to hold on to anger if it’s not addressed, solved, or validated. I do. In fact I needed a lesson in that quite some years ago now because I had become really bitter about being stuck in an in-law issue I couldn’t resolve, and didn’t recognise what was happening to me. A counsellor helped me out along with a friend who had recommended him.
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Why would he do this to me?
I am so angry and so hurt.
What is wrong with the mental health profession? Why are they such *****?
Doesn't he know I have no other options? Why would he play with my life like that?
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MY GP HAS JUST FOUND MY ONLINE LIFE.
WHAT DO I DO??!??!??!? I'VE DEACTIVATED THE ACCOUNT IN QUESTION, BUT IT WON'T DELETE FOR 2 WEEKS. WHAT DO I DO?????
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