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I know this post is going to be 'moderated', but I really don't care.

Unknown userMember09 Jan 2018, 11:08 pm AEDT

I know this post is going to be 'moderated', but I really don't care.

Does anyone else ever get to the point with sh that they just want to cause as much destruction as possible? Total and utter urge to self destruct?
I don't care about the ramifications, I don't care about the downstream impacts.
I just want to destroy myself.
What do you do?

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Shaz51Senior Contributor23 Jan 2018, 9:43 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member, talk to you tomorrow my awesome friend

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 9:04 am AEDT

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@Former-Member wrote:
No, I'm sorry @Phoenix_Rising I should have put a winking face next to that.
You do get it most of the time, you just don't seem to understand that I am a shit person.

Oh, well that's ok @Former-Member. I'm super glad that you weren't feeling the frustrated not-being-heard feeling.

It is quite true @Former-Member that I don't understand that you are a shit person. I'm still wanting to understand though so if you can provide me with a logical argument demonstrating your position I will definitely read it and work hard to understand.

I super hope your session with your therapist goes well today and that you are able to get some answers to the questions you asked him in your email.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 9:07 am AEDT

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Thinking of you too @Former-Member .... 💐🦕

(flowers for breakfast for the dinosaur .... )

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Unknown userMember24 Jan 2018, 12:45 pm AEDT

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Hello everyone - @Faith-and-Hope, @Shaz51, @Phoenix_Rising and @Appleblossom
Therapy in a few hours..... just a little but scared. Full up with studying atm. Too much work to do!
Thank you all for your kind words, will respond later.

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 1:20 pm AEDT

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You can do this @Former-Member. You've got this!

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 1:37 pm AEDT

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Thinking of you @Former-Member ...... 💕

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Shaz51Senior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 2:51 pm AEDT

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thinking of you lots @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember24 Jan 2018, 5:46 pm AEDT

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So..... bearing in mind I can never remember anything once I get emotional...
We started to talk about my diagnosis - but never really got to the conclusion.
We talked about about how I zone out all the time
And I'd asked him how long therapy would take and he basically said as long as I wanted.
He didn't really talk about if I could ever reach my goals (kids and relationship).

He was nice and didn't push me to far, but didn't give me direct answers either.
He was kind of probing what I thought were my possible diagnoses were, but I wasn't willing to tell him cause I'm scared I'm a narcissist with DID. And I will never ever admit to that in real life. That's basically analogous to giving people reasons to believe I'm a bad person.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 6:06 pm AEDT

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I am glad you are feeling comfortable with him @Former-Member ..... looks like you’re in for a learning journey .....

Maybe try to think of him as a mental health tutor, and see where that goes. It sounds like he is someone you can explore different diagnoses with to understand what they are about and see what does it doesn’t fit with you across time.

Have you considered how it might feel to find you are not a narcissist ? Or maybe you have some narcissistic traits, which a lot of people do, but that doesn’t make you a bad person, and understanding how they work can keep those traits from becoming disordered. Traits can be strengths, you know .....

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor24 Jan 2018, 6:09 pm AEDT

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@Former-Member I am sorry but not once did I ever think you were ' a narcissist with DID.' I nearly sprayed my computer screen with my cup of water when I read that. You are far too funny and quirky ... no way are you a narcissit and as for DID I am only a pea he is the expert try not to worry about it. xx

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