Unknown userMember
living with DID/ Dissociative Identity Disorder
hi @Former-Member, @CheerBear, @Spookytookims, @Former-Member and everyone else
I've had a few ask about what its like living with DID. So I decided to do a new thread. First off for those who dont know there are varying degrees of DID, from just feeling far away or distanced to having distinct alternate personalities or identies. In my case I have distinct alters to the point they have names and one has even been diagnosed with autisim which is rare.
So to make it so people can get a better idea I'm Aj the owner of the body. Then there is Kelly she is around the age of 4. Kelly actually started off as my imaginary friend when i was little then I went through a period of wanting to be the imaginary one due to abuse from someone i trusted. so Kelly is also the Autistic one, she will scream when touched and doesnt talk often sits and watches the clouds. the longest she has been out is 2 weeks. I am not co-consious with any of my alters when they are out i lose time. Kelly will come out usually if i feel scared or insecure and can be hard on my partner when our son wants mummy.
Next is sarah she is around 6 and is the easiest to handle often my partner cant tell she is out til she starts humming somesort of tune (we havent worked out what it is) she is a typical 6 yr old and the best part is my little boy isnt afected by her when shes out he just thinks mummy has taken time to play with him.
Then there is Casey while she comes out very little she needs constant monitoring as she self-harms but she doesnt usually come out unless get real down. thankfully my son has never had to encounter her.
i also have another alter but she is not as distinct as the others.
yes most of my alters a littles or children, i have been told this is because of my age when my childhood abuse started and when significant truma was present.
i was three when my abuse started. i was 22 when i finally cut the cord of emotional abuse my mother used on me. if anyone has questions i am happy to answer them
I did go overseas. That much I know. I was having extreme anxiety prior, and got new meds as a result. Then being there was very weird. Do you ever feel like you've been somewhere but you have no memory of it so how can you feel like you've been there? It was like that. Twice I found myself talking a language I couldn't understand but the person I was speaking to seemed to think I was a local?! Blech, yeah so very glad that's over and done with. Hoping beyond hope to be able to stay home and have some semblence of routine for the foreseeable future. 
