@Bow
Thank you so much for looking out for me. It really means a lot. I agree that volunteers are the heart of spaces like this, and while it's been a bit of a quiet and confusing time behind the scenes, having these honest conversations with you all is what keeps me going.
It's so sad to look back on those high points you mentioned, from the conference and the Pollys, and feel the contrast with how things are right now. You've seen this place at its best. I can really see why the current silence feels so loud.
I will be honest, as a Peer Guide, that I haven't really received any support from higher up since volunteering on here last year. There is no direct communication platform (besides a seperate forum on here for Peer Guides where nothing happens) for us volunteers to check in with the team, which is such a massive change from my previous volunteering work. On that platform, moderators and volunteers were constantly in touch. If I flagged a difficult post or needed a check-in after a tough interaction, they were right there. Here, that just doesn't exist at the moment; it's total silence.
I don't have the answers about the guided programs or where resources are being shifted, but I do share your concern about the impact that this has had on everyone. It's really hard to stay when you feel like the magic and support have faded, and I hear how much it hurts to even think about leaving.
Even while the future is uncertain, I am so glad that we're all talking here today. This might not be a big conference, but this right here is still the heart of the forum.