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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde *hugs tighter*

Pffft like I ever would @ArraDreaming 😂

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@Jynx I don't like what arra seemed to be implying

*trembles*

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@ArraDreaming just out here doing some thought experiments mayhaps? But not sure how helpful it is to imagine me being unpleasant to someone by saying no to a hug.

@avant-garde don't think anything's being implied, Arra's just a curious soul haha

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What happened to Consent

no to a hug isn’t unpleasant maybe you just don’t feel like one? @Jynx

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@Jynx it doesn't feel safe here right now

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hey @avant-garde just read your post from earlier today - i really appreciate you trusting us with your story and i'm so sorry it happened. you deserve to be respected at all times. we hear you and we believe you, always. sending you some gentle hugs 💙

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@ArraDreaming consent was requested!! Haha avant always asks first don't worry 😋

You don't have to worry bout me I am so fine to communicate my boundaries when they arise 😊

@avant-garde that is fair hun, feel free to take a breather if you need to - let me know if you'd like a little email check in 💜

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Hey @ArraDreaming, I appreciate your desire to interact and engage with me, and although I would typically be on board with that and maybe even a little playful, that wasn't the case with me yesterday. instead it left me feeling like I had done something wrong and the familiar fear that comes with that feeling. I know that wasn't the reaction you intended and I'm sorry if this has in any way caused you distress, but for my own sake I needed to say something. I hope you understand

@Jynx @tyme

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appreciate you calling me out mate
I meant it in a playful way but maybe didn’t read the context around it enough

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@avant-garde @ArraDreaming

💜💜

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