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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde wrote:

@Jynx

I know it's not what the song means but I didn't get distressed this time around!


@avant-garde progress!! Very glad to hear this. Do you use hymns for self-soothing often?

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@Jynx

Being here right now is terrifying and a bit too much

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Very fair @avant-garde thanks for letting me know. Would you like me to refrain from tagging you any further for now, and you can come back when you feel safe to do so?

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@Jynx

I'll email you

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Just checking in @avant-garde.

How are you feeling this week? 💛

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@AuntGlow

Not ready to be here yet.

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Retreating back to safety.

This place isn't safe for me.

Not now.

@MissGremlin - 💜

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@avant-garde i hear you sweetheart ❤️.

Would it help if I sent through a few of the latest Kate quotes or just some pictures to get that drop down clear?

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Okay, I understand @avant-garde.

Please let me know when you are ready and able to talk - I will be here.

Sending big hugs your way. 💛

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