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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx I win!

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Oooh that all sounds really interesting @avant-garde sounds like it's pretty technical to work with, so it's good that you have had a good teacher to begin with!

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@avant-garde Ahahaha yes you do!! Too much a creature of habit I am hehe

How's you?

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@Jynx my back hurts, I'm tired and you'll see how I am when you catch up on this thread

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Just read your post @avant-garde - would have taken some solid bravery to post, proud of you. Very sorry that happened to you hun, yet more people who have made it oh so hard for you to trust. Awful.

Back pain buds today, my lower back is doing a number on me 😫

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@Jynx can I get a hug please?

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@avant-garde Big and v soft, comin atcha 😊

*scoops you gently into hug*

🫂🫂🫂

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*relaxes crying softly in @Jynx's arms*

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What if Jynx said no

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What would you do
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