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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde clever!! No more puzzling over what to do with yourself! Hehehe

Do you have a dedicated puzzle corner in your space?

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@Jynx the only flat surface that can fit a chair, yes, but I'm in my friends office right now

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@avant-garde ahaha we make do hey!

Where do you think your plushie is waiting for you? Like a lil Kmart visit or off to toy store?

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@Jynx

TY brand, possibly the toy store my friend and I are visiting tomorrow

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Awww yisss good choice @avant-garde they're always so cute!! How's the puzzle going?

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@Jynx I started one about 2 months ago when I needed accountability after Delilah encounters at church and so finished that (except 3 pieces I'll eventually find).

Now started a 150 piece and have done the edge

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Noice @avant-garde I'm so glad you have such a peaceful lil creative process to throw your energy into 😊

I'm gonna be finishing up soon so I will have to bid you a very chill g'night! I hope that tomorrow demands very little of you 🤞

*one last squishy squeeze before I leave*

💜

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@tyme home on my own now

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No you're not. You're stuck with me lol @avant-garde

Hugs

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Thanks @tyme i needed that

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