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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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You know, 'stuck' that that horrible bandaid that you just want to tear off, or that chewing gum stuck to the bottom of your shoe lol @avant-garde

I'm off just before 10pm, but I'll sure be around!

What's your self-care routine tonight? Puzzling more puzzles?

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@tyme daylight is better for puzzles, tv, shower, nonograms and maybe looking into plushies

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Do you like squishmallows? @avant-garde

You certainly deserve a plushie!

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@tyme I didn't get the email... I don't particularly like squishmallows, they don't have arms that can hug you back

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Hahaha @avant-garde ,

They'll just have to MAKE a squishmallow with arms to squish you back!

Email?

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@tyme notification email, it's how I know to reply

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That's good @avant-garde . These email notifications have a mind of their own. We've escalated it to the platform owner many times. Arghhh... technology.

I bought my niece all these TY toy plushies. She has them across her entire bed head.

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@tyme I have over 30 for each accomplishment, drivers licence, various degrees, police statements, going no contact

It's a very visible thing because I can see all that I've accomplished

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That's totally amazing that you them as a representation of your achievements! You'll need a whole room for them soon, right? @avant-garde

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@tyme no, they're in the storage unit in a space bag

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