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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx

I've been giving statements for 15 years and there's still been no conviction, who says tomorrow will make any difference

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Maybe it will, maybe it won't @avant-garde... I dunno about you but when I put myself in your shoes, I think what it would come down to is whether or not I could live with myself if I didn't speak up.

Having conviction for ones morals even despite threat to life is something to be deeply admired. To continue to fight even when it feels hopeless, just in case it's not.... Yeah, you're incredible hun.

Alas, tis that time. If I forget to check in with you when I log on tomorrow arvo (around 3pm) pls do tag me if you want company - will sit with ya, debrief if you want to, and provide many virtual cuddles 💜

I can't think of words powerful enough to spur you on. How bout... I'll just remind you that I believe in you, believe in your journey, and I have every faith in you and in your inner strength! Hehehe. You got this 💪😎💖

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@Ru-bee I'll be ok right?

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You will be okay @avant-garde I'm right here with you

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Just checking in @avant-garde I hope today's going as well as it can. Thinking of you

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Gotchu in my thoughts and in my heart today @avant-garde 💜

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*runs to @Jynx and bursts into tears*

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Hugs @avant-garde

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*catches you @avant-garde and hugs right back*

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@Jynx I think I've earned a plushie. I get plushies for major achievements. I think I've earned a plushie.

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