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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@rav3n yeah, got takeout for dinner, just tv and nonograms

not up for spreadsheet talk tonight sorry, just going to curl up with my plushies and cry I think

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that's all good, we'll save that convo for another time @avant-garde

nonogram sounds pretty cool, never heard of it till now!

cry-sesh with the plushies sounds like a good release. hope you feel a lil better after it, and don't forget to stay hydrated hun 💙

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@Ru-bee

I'm glad I scanned a copy of my redress application, just printed 21 pages of it for the police tomorrow...

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I'm gad you did too. How are you feeling about giving that to the police tomorrow? @avant-garde

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@Ru-bee

Handing paper over is fine

The details they'll ask for in relation to what's written is overwhelming

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I can imagine @avant-garde

What time will this be happening tomorrow? Do you have some soothing things that you can do before and after?

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@Ru-bee it is all planned out, I have a friend taking me and I have my police survival kit and then I'm not alone after either, I'll have my headphones and jigsaw puzzle

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*Pokes @Jynx gently*

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That's fantastic to hear @avant-garde I'm always really impressed with your self-care measures that you do in these hard situations

I hope you know that we'll be here for you too, sending you hugs and strength

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@avant-garde

Heyyyyyy I'm ticklish!! Staaaaahp!! 🤣

Teehee hello lovely how are you?

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