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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx can I get a hug?

Riot still operates online

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@avant-garde you betcha! *scoops you into soft hug, with a teensy lift*

Hahaha I have to ban myself from online shopping, by and large. Too many impulse purchases that have resulted in disappointment over the years. I like going to a physical store where I can better gauge quality! Call me old fashioned ahaha

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@Jynx

*rests quietly just there*

I'm tired now, it's been a long day

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@avant-garde

*hums a gentle tune*

Yeah I bet you are hun. Not just today, you've had a pretty big week! Much slumberings ahead for you I hope!

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@Jynx next week will be worse but I'll be ok

Looking at Kmart, they sell the metal type too, pretty flowers, kids section

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Ooooh so many to choose from @avant-garde!!

I'm headed off hun, one more big squeeze 🫂🫂 before I go! And we will be here for ya for whatever crap your week throws your way 😎💜 Toooodles!!

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ok, i've done all the police printing, now i'm going to run away and cry

@rav3n

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@avant-garde the police printing stuff sounds like a lot, how are you holding up? got an nice cosy pillow fort to run and hide in by any chance?

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@rav3n I had to go through stuff I'd written and find all the stuff I'd written and print it out.

The headache sucks

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that sounds pretty intense, i'm not surprised the headache sucks!! @avant-garde have you got a chill night planned?

OH and only if you're up for it - tell me about your tv show spreadsheet? i've got a tv show powerpoint but unfortunately i haven't updated it in a while

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