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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Jynx I have a way with words... I can't help it 😊

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@avant-garde good! You shouldn't! 😁

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@Jynx?

Something happened on the bus yesterday that shook me so bad...

TW: threatening behaviour

Content/trigger warning
this male walked towards the bus in the middle of the road as the bus was moving with bricks in his hands. He stood in front of the them stationary bus wanting to get on. The driver let him on without the bricks. He stayed on the bus for 2 stops and then got off and started running.
I was thankful he got off but don't think the driver should've let him on.

*trembles quietly crying*

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Oof, yeah agreed that sounds so unsafe @avant-garde I'm sorry you had to be in that persons space. Let's pretend he was a builder?

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@Jynx that's hard, I was at the front of the bus and I can't get the image of him standing there out of my head

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@avant-garde sorry vanished on you for a bit there, was helping out with groups!

Aye very fair, always worth a try, the ol' reframing. Sounds like it rocked you just a bit harder than that tho.

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@Jynx my head is screaming, stupid to flashbacks

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Sitting beside you @avant-garde and I got hug delivery when you're ready for em.

Would you like some distracty chats?

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*rests weakly against @Jynx*

I'm not alone

Distraction chats would be good

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Gotchu @avant-garde 🫂

Do you get hyperfixations? Like suuuper obsessed with a tv show or something? At the moment for me, I've been really getting into tarot and cartomancy!! Anything been revving up your passions of late?

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