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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@tyme and then the bus just got dangerous... it's 10 minutes... 10 minutes...

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hrm... do you have any strategies up your sleeve to help you get through this? @avant-garde

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@tyme yes but no longer required

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Aww @avant-garde ya cutie. I saw your collection!! Love the duck of ducks ahaha. How you doin today poppet?

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@Jynx poppet makes me think of Mrs Doubtfire, not sure if you intended that but I'm not fond of that term. Sweetheart, hun, darling, but not poppet

Dreadfully warm and not keen to go home to my tin box with no air con

How are you

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Oh yeah nah not a movie from my nostalgia collection @avant-garde I honestly think I picked it up from Pirates of the Carribean 😅 But duly noted darling!!

Oh nooo 😖 I used to go hang out in my local library when it was too hot and I had no air con - is your local library a space that feels safe for you to lurk in?

I'm not bad! Also sweaty, but just cos it's suuuuper muggy here 😓

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🤦 I'm a qualified librarian @Jynx... I became a librarian because it has always been my safe place

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Preaching to the choir haha that's so cool @avant-garde! Knew there was a reason (actually very many, teehee) I liked ya! I have SUCH a huge place in my heart for libraries. I think cos they represent one of my core values - freedom of knowledge! It is so gatekept these days, everything kept behind paywalls... libraries are the last bastion of the free sharing of information and I love them for it!

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@Jynx although I strongly believe that actions speak louder than words, hearing someone say "there are reasons why I like YOU" is something that I never take for granted.

It's not saying that I like something you do or I like something you wear, it's saying that I value who YOU are and I like YOU.

That you saying that brought tears to my eyes

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@avant-garde 🥹🥰

You always know just what to say to make me blush and feel all warm n fuzzy!! Glad my words are so meaningful for you!!

Aww I'm touched, you cutie 😊

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