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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde oh that's a phenomenal first success story, I love it!

Alas, I am indeed set to skedaddle off into the night soon. You round tomorrow arvo? I'm setting an alarm to kick off a plushies thread so I will probs tag you anyway 😊

I'm so proud of you as well hun, you've copped a heck of the day and you took it in stride when you could, and sought support when it got too much. That takes strength.

Nighty night 💜

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@Jynx it takes recognising your weakness to develop your courage and bravery

Yes I'm around tomorrow

Thank you Jynx

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@Jynx

Hey

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Allo! Got caught up making the Plushie post lol @avant-garde how you going?

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@Jynx I don't know what words describe how I'm feeling right now

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Words can be so insufficient hey @avant-garde

I'll be heading off soon anyway, do you want someone to sit with you? Cos @tyme is still floating about 😊

And dw if you're not up for sharing in other threads/plushie thread tonight, it's all good! Might see you round tomorrow hopefully?

Be gentle with your kind and wonderful self!! Till next time 💜

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@Jynx I spent 20 minutes looking for all my plushie/toy photos

Yes I'll be around tomorrow, I'm around most days, just with you it's more of a priority

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Hey my dear @avant-garde , how are you?

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@tyme

I went from not feeling anything to this suddenly giggly tired! oh it's amusing!

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I'd like to giggle with you @avant-garde 🙂

Love it.

Hugs to you.

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