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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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I have a lung function test I need to leave for shortly and haven't been allowed to take my inhaler for 24 hours. Parking is horrendous, so public transport it is...

Right now, yes, in 10 minutes... undetermined

@Jynx

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@avant-garde 😮 A perilous quest!!

Braving the bright, the loud, the crowd... Well you are a warrior and they ain't gonna smack you down today!

Wouldst thou need a relic to take with thee on thine journey? I have a chalice of infinite hugs here, so you can grab a Jynx hug whenever you need it!

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@Jynx you're trying to make me laugh... it's working... along with coughing and yawning a lot from a lack of oxygen...

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Yay! A laughing @avant-garde is my fav 😍

How's the PT today, hope you're not having to deal with big crowds!

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@Jynx I didn't notice, a seat close to the door hopped off where I got on

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@avant-garde noice

Do you listen to music when you're out in public? I couldn't survive without my noise-cancelling headphones!

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@Jynx shopping centres yes, last time I was here yes, but it's fairly quiet today, there's only 4 other people in this massive room right now so I'm ok enough

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Noice! Don't get distracted by side quests either @avant-garde!! There's very shiny things in shopping centres but YOU MUST RESIST

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@Jynx I'm not in a shopping centre... they did let me keep the nose clip though!

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@Jynx

*curls up in a pillow fort with my claw machine plushies*

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