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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Sure thing! Tell me the hymns you remember most.

I actually sometimes play the organ for church services. I don't enjoy it, but I do it because it's needed - when others are away...

@avant-garde

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@tyme

  • What a friend we have in Jesus
  • As the deer
  • It is well with my soul
  • Amazing grace

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Love those ones. You should hear by 4 year old neice sing It is well, at the top of her voice!

The only one I don't know is As the deer. What's the first line and I'll look it up?

I'm trying to think of ones I like. I like Isaac Watts' songs. @avant-garde

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@tyme

As the deer pants for the water

So my soul longs after you

You alone are my heart's desire

And I long to worship you

That is more than the first line

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@tyme yeah that one!

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Amazing. I LOVE the lyrics to that song! @avant-garde

I'm trying to think of other hymns I like...

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@tyme

Nearer my God to thee

So you would come

Take my life and let it be

Rock of ages

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Yes @avant-garde !

Rock of Ages cleft for me

Just a closer walk with thee

How Great Thou Art

Be Thou My vision

Great is thy faithfulness

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

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@tyme all of those!

Behold our God

Before the throne

It makes me miss her but smile at the same time at how much I love her. I loved singing with her

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