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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@Ru-bee

Doctors appointment later, but yes, emotional self care yeah I'm half decent, physical self care not so much

Coping ahead is one of my strengths

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@Ru-bee dentist was lovely and understanding, all finished for today, now for jigsaw puzzle

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I'm so glad to hear @avant-garde

What a huge difference a caring and gentle dentist can make

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@Ru-bee

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Heya @avant-garde 🙂

How are you?

Thinking of you.

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@tyme

I am very very freaked out and trying to settle

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Holding your hand @avant-garde . Sounds rough.

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@tyme

I had my doctor's appointment and went into one of the discount stores...

Content/trigger warning
the police came in trying to find the gunman that had left as I had walked in...

Felt like this needed a box but not sure what to trigger warn it as

*curls up shaking and crying in the corner*

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Awwwwww @avant-garde

Hugs to you. That must be so so traumatic. I'm mindful about what you recently went through with the police.

I'm sitting with you. Please know I'm here.

Can you think of anything I can do to make it a little easier for you?

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@tyme my police stuff isn't for another 2 weeks, when I go in and begin giving my statement

Just engaging with me helps

Can we talk about hymns? I love hymns, they remind me of my grandma

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