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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Good to hear @avant-garde .

Sitting with you at this time.

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@Jynx

They're aware of my PTSD but because of the short notice I imagine it was a cancellation and so it may not be the surgeon I met anyway, I'll find out when I call tomorrow.

There was no letter from them and I actually started to smile while singing in the shower

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@avant-garde my sweet, i hope all goes well with your surgery ❤️

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You know what? This week has been a nightmare wrapped in barbed wire.

I have done everything I can to have some kind of fun and even that gets "have you thought about others".

I'm sorry! No! I haven't! I've just been trying to get through this blasted week without doing stupid things! I'm sorry that I thought I mattered for a change!

Because apparently I was wrong.

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@MissGremlin

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@avant-garde awww look at her sleeping peacefully, she's so beautiful 😍.

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@MissGremlin

Then I woke her by picking her up

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@avant-garde haha did you get some cuddles?

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@MissGremlin

No, I got 2 scratches

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@avant-garde oh dear, someone didn't want cuddles today. Hope the scratches aren't too bad sweet.

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