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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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  • I really liked the way you listed this!
  • Completely understandable.
  • Grounding must be hard...
  • Especially if things are loud.
  • Can we channel this frustration into supportive action? 🫶
  • @avant-garde

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@AuntGlow

  • I have noise cancelling headphones which help for the most part
  • They have massage chairs here now and I use one before my last store
  • Lists help order my thoughts when I'm finding it difficult to function

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These are great sensory strategies. @avant-garde 💛

The shops are dysregulating for me at times too.

How are you feeling now?

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@AuntGlow

Aldi is quiet and the massage chair helped

I got a squeaky dog toy to make people move

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hahah genius idea!! @avant-garde

I might need to try that.

What can you do for yourself when you're home? 🫶

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@AuntGlow

I had fun testing the dog toys

Jasmine and I started my Christmas jigsaw puzzle yesterday while we were together, I'm going to finish that I think

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haha I can imagine!! @avant-garde

I am sure it was really nice to see her. 🥰

What is the Christmas puzzle of? 💛

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@AuntGlow

I did the edge and Jasmine did bits of the middle

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Awww, do you have a Pooh and Piglet kind of connection? @avant-garde 🥰

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@AuntGlow

Not so much, I just love Winnie the Pooh and my friends know that

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