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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@AuntGlow

He will never take accountability, he's too privileged for that.

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@Jynx

Thank you, still feeling quite unsettled and have group today, just in our break right now, last one for the year, gave out my Christmas presents, they really loved them

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@avant-garde wrote:

@AuntGlow

He will never take accountability, he's too privileged for that.


I'm sorry. 😔 What can I do to be there for you right now? @avant-garde

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@AuntGlow

I honestly don't know

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Aww so wholesome @avant-garde 😍

I hope you're feeling a bit more settled after group?

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@Jynx

I love my group and one of my recipients read through the entire book before group, and chose to share one in her check-in! I got all teary and smiley.

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@avant-garde omg love it!! Happy tears are so good when they happen hey! 😍

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@Jynx

Poetry is my superpower and I love it

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Content/trigger warning

It was real

It was real

It was real

No no no no no

The memory

It was real

It was real

TW: SA

Content/trigger warning
He did [sexully assault - edited by moderator] me
I was seizing
And he did [sexully assault - edited by moderator] me
I was vulnerable and distressed and reliving memories and having seizures and I had no one and he did [sexully assault - edited by moderator] me
He did [sexully assault - edited by moderator] me

It was real

I remember

I remember

No

No

No

... yes

It was real

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Hearing you @avant-garde

I'm sorry this has happened and that you live with the memories. Sending you gentle hugs 💜

How is today feeling for you?

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