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hey @avant-garde i don't see an email from you in our inbox. was it sent through just recently?

@rav3n about 10 hours ago...

found the email! it was just filed in the wrong folder - we'll respond to your email soon 😊 @avant-garde

@moderator

Lifeline is unavailable, are there any other chat based services I can use?

Hey @avant-garde,

Beyond Blue also has an online chat option! Here is the link if you want to check it out: Beyond Blue Webchat Support Service - Beyond Blue 🦋

@ENKELI

I miss you

@AuntGlow

Can we chat a little?

There's so much and my mind is starting to catch up

From Jehoram to Azariah to AI to house inspection to doctors to Christmas to memories

I feel like I'm drowning

Hello lovely! Yes, of course. Sorry I am only just getting to my recent notifications now. @avant-garde

What's on your mind? 💛

@AuntGlow

Azariah pushing me to trust Jehoram without compromise

He doesn't know the damage he did when he didn't think it was worth telling me he was too busy to even tell me he couldn't meet with me. I'm glad I got to cancel on him today because for once I had control and pulled the blanket out from under him. He's done it enough to me.

Jehoram turns out he is a pompous jerk but not as emotionally stupid as I thought, he sucks at communicating.

AI still feels like a mess and I'm anxious to tell my peer support group tomorrow, but glad to give Christmas books. There was a memory that came up that I'm scared to look at...

House inspection, yeah I was in hospital for that so it got pushed to the day before I leave on holiday. It might be nice to come home to a clean house though.

The hospital was terrifying and overwhelming and what was scary was not knowing what it was. I felt disregarded, unimportant, she didn't even do a discharge summary the first time round. I liked yesterday's, she was lovely and took time to answer my questions and gave me an opportunity to research when the medication she would have given me had sulfur, I found same one but different companies that don't have sulfur. I am very good with my allergies.

Christmas... the carols event was nice but the emotions hit soon afterwards. It made me make a decision on Christmas Day though which was good. Going to do what I've done the last 3 years. Orphans unite!