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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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Hi @rav3n

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hey @avant-garde 😊

how are you going?

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@rav3n

The intrusive images have stopped but the last 3 days have taken a real toll on me

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having 3 days worth of stuff pile up sounds quite exhausting @avant-garde sorry it's been a rough time for you, sending you gentle hugs 💙 i'm glad to hear that the intrusive images have stopped. is there anything we can do to support you tonight?

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My day isn't quite over, I was a little scared to post but not brave enough to go back on the main page yet

At least I get to see my best friend shortly

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if staying away from the main page is going to protect you and you keep you safe, it sounds like you made the right decision @avant-garde i'm glad you've reached out here too, we're here for you.

we're also chatting on the Re: Fancy a cuppa , Connect now 2 thread if you'd like to join in too - no pressure at all 😊

yay, talking it out with your bestie will be nice - are you both meeting up for coffee or something?

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@rav3n

We catch up every week, we're watching a show called Austin at the moment, it's quite good.

I don't really talk things out with her, she doesn't have the emotional capacity for it, she's like the playful little sister

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@avant-garde ahh okay, i get you. it's nice having someone to have fun and unwind with✨

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@avant-garde I honestly don't know why those people don't treat you with love sweet heart, I don't see you as being hard or difficult to love.

I wish I could hug you and hug the hurt away my sweet girl.

I'm praying hard for you 🙏 ❤️

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