Running

@Jynx

I wish people at church would see beyond how I present and celebrate my achievements with me, I mean I keep myself so so busy, I make jewellery and write amazing poetry and have illustrated an entire book and I am going to be in an art exhibition!

But do my church notice these things? No.

They see that I don't have a steady job

I have a messy car

I have a cluttered house

I'm not married

I don't have kids (to their satisfaction and understanding)

I don't have my own home

I don't have family

That I don't measure up to other women my age.

But I'm probably the most free of them all

Because at least I'm learning who I am

It still hurts though

@avant-garde I think sometimes people can have a very narrow lens - they have a very specific idea of what a 'successful life' looks like and will harshly critique anyone who dares to live outside that tiny box.

I hope you have/find people who celebrate your successes as your successes, not some idea of what you or anyone should be doing.

@Jynx

Yeah, I've also come up with creative answers to "so what's your job"

"I do a lot of different things, writing and illustrating books, selling jewellery and tutoring in tech"

Now I can add that I'm assisting in an exhibition

I don't say I don't have a job.

@avant-garde Clever. Half-truths help immensely when we don't feel like opening up certain cans of worms with certain people hey.

Exhibition of your art is such a wonderful accomplishment too - many people with 'jobs' couldn't even hope to achieve something like that!!

@Jynx

Then my head goes "I may not have a job, but I have a life"

And I get paid for my jewellery

@avant-garde love it, honestly. I know which one I would rather have 😋

I am bout to scuttle off - ty for the chats, I hope your night is restful hun. Catch ya next time 💜

Having trouble pulling myself from the darkness

And then it gets worse and then it gets worse and then it gets worse

@MissGremlin https://saneforums.org/t5/Something-s-not-right/Delilah-not-her-actual-name/m-p/1587870/highlight/true#M366078

To answer your question.

@avant-garde oh sweet, reading this hurt. I'm so sorry for what she put you through, you didn't deserve any of it. I'm truly sorry that i reminded you of this by my post.