Running

@Jynx

Probably not... I tend to rush the feeling thing just wanting it to be over rather than just letting it happen...

Then you call me incredible and immediately my head goes no

@avant-garde probably feels 'safer' not having a lot of emotional affect, since you've spent so long in places where you weren't allowed to be expressive.

And that's okay, though probably a bit jarring for you. I know many folks in my own life who find compliments deeply uncomfortable. I hope one day you will be able to see yourself through a different lens, where you will be able to see how incredible you are 😊

@Jynx

The pain is so deep... there were so many consequences of what they did...

The complements thing is partly that I have little idea what a life could be like without trauma that I don't know what makes me so incredible for surviving it...

Does that make sense?

Makes total sense @avant-garde - for the record, I was not saying you're incredible for surviving your trauma. I was more focusing on the way you are going about processing it - letting it out when it needs to come out, letting yourself be vulnerable, finding your voice, not shying away from difficult topics, all that kinda stuff. I think it speaks to your integrity and internal power, and that's what I find incredible about you. I hope that makes more sense.

@Jynx

That makes more sense, I know what shutting up looks like but change doesn't come when you shut up

Evil wins when good people do nothing

I've experienced too much evil to do nothing.

You finish soon

@avant-garde darn right!

Alas, yes I am off. I really appreciate bearing witness to this part of your journey and thank you for including me in it. I hope your week is restful, still, slow, peaceful, all that jazz 😉💜 G'night!

@rav3n

Had therapy earlier...

It was a lot today... sharing about rehab and how I actually came to acknowledge the complicity of churches in everything I've gone through... all the trauma I've endured...

@avant-garde you may not feel strong and resilient at the moment but the fact that religion has caused you so much damage and you still have a steadfast love for Jesus shows just how strong you are. I have shed many tears reading your story, and said many prayers for you.

Sweetheart I wish there was something I could do for you aside from give you support both verbally and spiritually.

You are much loved and respected by me 🥰

@ENKELI

That reminds me of a keyring I have "Jesus isn't my religion, he's my saviour" and then my head says "religion harmed me, Jesus didn't"