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Talking through trauma and PTSD

Running

Running

"Behind every strong person is a story that gave them no choice"

My life is all about a lack of choice.

I'm alive because death would've outed him, it would have sealed his fate in prison.

TW: cultic, rape, trafficking, torture

I'm the daughter of a Satanist...

One trained to breed...

One pregnant at 6 years old...

One prostituted to whoever could afford her...

The girl her dad didn't want...

One men hired to have fun with...

One men experimented with...

One who was tortured for speaking up...

One trained for the sole purpose to please her buyer...

Regardless of age...

Still though...

One who never stayed silent...

One who broke free... twice...

One who rose up...

One who seeks to prove them wrong...

One who has been running for 15 years...

One who just needs to feel heard...

One who went through hell and survived...

That this Phoenix can rise...

She will not be burned...

She's proven that...

I have proven that...

I'm 35 and 90% of those I've been in prolonged abusive situations insufficient evidence for prosecution

A system that protects the abuser more than the survivor

And yet I still try

I don't try for me, I try for the ones after me, the ones like me, that they will see their justice

But for now I run...

From a dad that wants me silenced...

From the nightmares that plague my sleep...

From the memories that invade my mind...

From the choices made for me...

Didn't expect that to come out as poetic as it did

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@avant-garde I mean, how could you interpret it any other way hun? I am so sorry that you have gotten this message that you're not worth listening to. I hope this helps give you some evidence to the contrary. I always enjoy our chats, and definitely feel like you have much value to add to any community!! Just sucks the ones around you haven't been a good fit... stuck in old ways maybe 😑

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@Jynx

I have an ear nose and throat appointment tomorrow... gah I hate hospitals... they're the worst at listening to me...

I wish someone could actually give me a real physical hug... I could do with one of those right now...

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@avant-garde I wish we could somehow make virtual hugs real hugs... Cos I'm sending you so many!!

🫂🫂🫂

I gots to dash lovely, rest well and catch you next time. Hope the hospital is minimal stressy - and get yourself a lil treat at the end!! Always helps hehe 😉

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@Ru-bee it would be the same clinic as maternity wouldn't it!

Nonograms I think

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Are you there now @avant-garde?

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@Ru-bee yes

I asked the receptionist if I can wait on the chairs in the hall and it is better out here

Current wait time is 30 minutes past the appointment time

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Good on you for asking to be able to wait in a space that feels for okay for you @avant-garde

I hope they can see you soon

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@Ru-bee

It's all done, all over

My ear drum is scarred from infections as a kid

We're going to reassess in 2 years to consider bone conduction hearing aids due to the amount of infections from the hearing aids I have

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@Jynxy!

*runs up and hugs*

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@avant-garde Oh hello! How are y-

*gets bowled over*

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