Running

@rav3n

The pain of the things I must replace... the things they considered unimportant...

hey @avant-garde i'm finishing up but i did wanna sending you some hugs before i hop off 💙

did you wanna unpack what you've shared? i won't be able to respond tonight, but i can get back to you next week (or other community members might be able to support you too).

hoping things get brighter for you.

@rav3n

That's ok, I'm pretty sure Jynx and Tyme are around later on

Hey @avant-garde , I'm here. I've been meaning to ask, how did the moving go?

@tyme

Well it's done so that's something

I wrote this last night

I curl up into bed

with no alarms quite set

to wait upon tomorrow

when the day it shall be mine

no place yet to be

to be content you see

catch up on some sleep

hopefully pleasant dreams

a house not quite my own

a pressure still familiar

all these expectations

of how I'm meant to be

they seem to want to help

but I don't want their opinion

to feel a kind of pressure

of how to live my life

I have friends not like that

who see the effort I make

see what brings me joy

with no pressure to be fake

no more "best intentions"

just letting me be me

no more "taking liberties"

of what belongs to me

no more this and what not

of what to think and wear

just letting me be me

where their opinions aren't there

Hugs @avant-garde ,

You made it. I hear there are so many big thoughts here.

I'm sitting with you.

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@avant-garde wrote:

they seem to want to help

but I don't want their opinion

to feel a kind of pressure

of how to live my life

...

no more "best intentions"

just letting me be me

no more "taking liberties"

of what belongs to me

no more this and what not

of what to think and wear

just letting me be me

where their opinions aren't there

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@tyme

It's this I wanted to talk about... it's to do with my church...

@tyme

Why do people think they know what's best for me and take actions according to their opinion...

Can't they see that being told won't get them anywhere with me

I'm not sure @avant-garde . Have you told them? I wonder if it's people really want to 'help' but don't realise they are doing more harm?

Is there something in particular about what happened that you want to unpack (if it's not too triggering for you. No obligation.)

@tyme

Yeah, I've talked to them, multiple times...

It was yesterday... C had come to help clean and I found him putting all these little things in the rubbish bag, that the task was more important than my opinion, like "she doesn't know what she wants, but I do"

A lot of my church behave like that, don't respect my wishes because my life isn't how they would have it... it hurts, just the assumption...